The Desi Girl (Discontinued)

Chapter 17: You're So In Love

Chapter 17: You're So In Love

This is it. I'm gonna be eighteen in few hours. Its my first birthday with all seven of us together and I want it to be epic. I don't know whether Claire, Ronnie, Jesse and Mr. Guy-who-kissed-me-off-guard know that it's my birthday, but I know this much that Zee and Tara remember it's my birthday tomorrow. I wish Kabir was here. I really miss my best friend. It's my first birthday without him, Daads, Mom and Dad. But chill, Ri, you can always video call them and chachu and Bibz are there to fill the emptiness of Mom and Dad.

Nobody knew about it. The kiss I mean. I have been avoiding him since Friday night or should I say, he has been avoiding me.

Flashback

Every nerve of my body tingled to his touch. My cheeks felt warm. I felt butterflies in my stomach. Seemed like I wanted him to do this. Why?

"I am really sorry. I understand--" Parker said as he pulled off but I shut his mouth by kissing him again.

Yes. It was me this time. The part of me which was mad at him for stealing my first kiss off guard was not there anymore. I actually liked it. His lips tasted like cheese popcorn. They were really soft. I was in awe that his lips were so soft. He put his hands around my waist while my fingers played with his hair. How was his hair so smooth too? I wanted the moment to last as long as possible.

"I should be going." He said as we pulled away.

He climbed out of the window to his house. I couldn't stop thinking about it all night. Hell! I couldn't sleep all night. All I was thinking about what I was feeling. Is this what love feels like? No. Love is a really strong word. It felt right. Did I really like Parker or was this just puberty hitting hard? Maybe it was both.

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And now here I am sitting on my bed watching Thirteen Reasons Why on my laptop. Is it just me or is season 2 really convincing and not depressing.

He hasn't been coming to his window. He isn't popping up behind me. This is so weird. I am not used to him not being around me all the time. He distracts me from being sad about my mother and father. See? He's not around and I am thinking about how I won't be able to go into adulthood with them by my side.

"Come in." I said as I heard a knock.

"Hey. Dinner's ready kiddo." Bibz said.

"Sit with me for a few minutes. I need to talk to you." I told her.

" What's up?" She asked me.

" Do you think about them?" I asked.

"Always. Especially Di. Why suddenly?" She said.

" Nothing. Just asking. I miss them. And tomorrow is one of the most special days of my life. Just feeling a little empty. " I said.

"Its ok to miss them." She said.

"Can I ask you something? Like really personal. You can't tell anybody about this."

"Sure."

"What does love feel like?" I asked the most important question in a teenager's life.

"You know, your mom and I had the most amazing bond ever. She was my best friend, my other half or whatever you call it. When she met your dad in college, she reduced spending time with me. She would spend most of her time with your dad. That's why I never liked Karan. But then I got used to it." She started.