Another Disappointment

chapter twenty-two

Present Day

Wiping my tears I kept my focus elsewhere. I'm physically, mentally and emotionally drained. I have no strength. I'm weak and powerless everything I promised I would never be again especially over a man.

Daisy nodded scribbling down notes in her notepad before speaking again.

"How did things go at the funeral with Thomas and Tonya there?" She asked.

"Not so bad."

                     "Present" 

I exhaled as the sun shined beautifully after a rainy night. The day has arrived for Mammy to be put to rest once and for all. It was the day of the memorial service.

The following day after we arrived to Bahamas she was found sleeping peacefully. Tabitha and I followed her wishes and got her cremated and spreader her ashes into the ocean.

We decided to have a memorial for her when we arrived home.

Staring down at my folded hands on my lap I gathered all my emotions together so I wouldn't be a hot mess at the funeral. Even though my last words Mammy and I exchanged was "I love you" I still wasn't ready for this day.

But I have to be strong for Reina and Ryann even though I'm weaker than both of them combined.

The bond Mammy and I had was indescribable. Words couldn't describe the relationship we once shared.

She was everything to me.

Leo placed his hand in my lap squeezing my hand softly while driving with the other. We drove in his black 4-door Audi following the ridiculous funeral line. The rest of the family rode in Black limousines ahead of us. I could of rode with them but I didn't want to be surrounded.

I was still highly upset with him but I was slowly getting over it. Life was too short to hold grudges.

I glanced up at him melting against the leather seat. Noticing, he was in deep thought again. Lately, his been quiet as if he was going to make an important decision soon.

"What's bothering you?" I asked breaking the comfortable silence.

"Nothing baby." He replied keeping his eyes on the road. I knew he was lying but this wasn't the time to push the situation I have bigger issues I have to deal with than to force him to talk to me.

We stayed quiet for the remaining the ride to the church.

Arriving to the church it was overflowed with 'family'. I wasn't close to my family. I didn't even have a favorite cousin. My mom has two older sisters but they stopped fucking with her when the Thomas thing came to light.

They reached out on birthdays and holidays but that was it.

Leo opened my door grabbing my hand helping me out. I adjusted the silky loose designer dress causing it to fall pass my knees revealing only my calfs.

I didn't want to gain any unwanted attention from Thomas. So I wore something I felt protected in, it covered most of curves but it was impossible to hide all my curves...I tried.