LA Big Break

Chapter Twenty Six

I slumped down on the bed and cried. My one, well actually three chances of seeing him were gone, just like that. Mel came through and looked at the screen before coming to hug me.

‘Oh Hannah, I’m sorry!’ She said.

‘I really thought I might get to see h-him!’ I whaled like a baby. Mel helped me back on to the bed and sat next to me. I let her straighten my hair and help me choose what to wear before we went down to eat.

‘Shall we go for a walk, get some fresh air?’ She asked and I nodded.

‘That’d be nice, I know a good place.’ I said, trying my hardest to crack a smile.

‘Good, come on.’ She said, dragging me through the door in only a small top and shorts.

We walked for about twenty minutes, and I kept Mel guessing as to where we were going, knowing she wouldn’t guess, because she’s never been there before. In fact, I’ve only taken one person there before.

We walked up the hill and I could see the bench that I took Cody to on the morning that the paps bombarded us in the distance. It was slightly misty seeing as it was early and I was shivering, but the fresh air was helping to clear my head and I needed to sit on that bench, just to give me some hope that I might see Cody again. However, the further I walked, the more self-hatred I felt. The more idiotic I felt and the more stupid I felt.

‘Where are we going?’ Mel asked, seeing as I hadn’t really given her much of an explanation.

‘Just this place that I used to go to sometimes. I took Cody there when we were here and I just feel like walking there.’ I smiled… ish.

‘No Hannah, I don’t think that’s a good idea!’ Mel said, trying to turn me in the other direction.

‘No, it’s fine. I want to go!’ I reassured and after a few minutes of convincing, she gave in and let me walk there.

‘You’re crazy Hannah.’ She half giggled and I let out a small laugh back.

‘Cody’s one of a kind, I just want to feel some hope that I haven’t completely destroyed our relationship.’ I said, swallowing hard to avoid crying. I never thought I’d feel like this about anybody after what Caleb did but Cody made me feel like the most special girl in the world. I couldn’t help but hate myself for what I did.

We neared the top of the hill and I could see the faint outline of a person sat on the bench.

‘There’s somebody there, let’s go somewhere else!’ Mel whispered. But I recognised the person.

‘No, let’s go.’ I replied. She sighed and I pulled her up the hill. I don’t know if I was hallucinating, but I knew the person on that bench.

A boy.

Blonde hair.

The jacket.

Cody’s jacket.

‘Cody?’ I questioned, my heartbeat increasing rapidly as I ran up the hill. He turned around and looked taken aback.

‘Hannah, what are you doing here?’ He asked, standing up.

‘I could ask you the same thing!’ I replied whilst walking over to him.

‘Well, umm… I have to go and do some… grocery shopping, so I’ll see you later!’ Mel said, running down the hill before I could respond.

‘How are you?’ He asked.

‘Okay, I guess. How’s tour?’ I said. I lied, I’m not okay, I had an urge to just breakdown, but I held myself together.

‘Good, not the same without you though.’ He said. I slumped down on the bench.

‘Cody…’ I sighed.

‘I really didn’t mean what I said you know.’ He replied.

‘I know you didn’t.’

‘Then why did you go crazy? You ignored my calls, texts, I called round but your mum always said you weren’t in, but I knew you were! That really hurt Hannah.’ He said.

‘I know, I just, I was so angry. And as soon as I walked off, I knew how stupid I’d been. But I just couldn’t face you. I don’t know why.’ I said, sobbing a little bit.

‘You’re shivering! Here.’ He said, taking off his jacket and putting it over my shoulders.

‘Thanks. I’m really sorry Cody.’ I said, closing his jacket around me. However I was still shivering, but sitting with Cody made me feel some warmth, a reminder of what we used to have before I threw it away.

‘I know. I am too.’ He said. He looked at me and slipped his arm around me, and pulled me in close.

‘Are you warmer now?’ He asked, rubbing my arm.

‘A lot better thank you.’ I said before breaking down in tears.

‘Aye, it’s okay.’ He reassured soothingly.

‘Cody, I’m so sorry!’ I whaled. He didn’t say anything, he just kissed my cheek and stroked my hair as I cried.

‘I love you Hannah, nothing will change that. Say we just forget this, sound good?’ He finally said.

‘Are you serious? You mean you would take me back after I did that?’ I asked, dumbfounded.

‘Like I said, nothing will stop me loving you, and you’re not all to blame here, I played a role in it too! And I’m sorry.’ He said. I couldn’t get over it.

‘I love you so much!’ I sobbed.

‘I love you so much and more!’ He said as he hugged me.

‘I love you to the moon and back!’ I replied, looking into his eyes.

‘Just kiss me Hannah.’ He said and I did so.

‘I missed you so much.’ I said when he finally broke off.

‘You have no idea.’ He replied.

‘Love you.’ We both said in unison.