Everything I didn't say☆L.H

21. Jet black heart

- Luke's P.O.V -

Its been 1 week and 3 days since what happened with Nirvana. Lately it seems like she's been keeping her distance. "I'll be back guys, I'm gonna go get something from the store." I make up the most stupid excuse. "Dude its about to be 11:00 p.m. There's no way your going to the store so late." Calum yawns. "Okay look, some girl dmed me on instagram. I'm in the mood to fuck." I make another stupid excuse. I just didn't want the guys to know I was going over to see Nirvana. They would make it awkward if they found out. "Aaaah okay. You could've just said that man." Ashton chcukles. "Alright I'll see you guys later on maybe." I smirk. "Kaaay, good bye." Michael waves eating some hot cheetos.

I make my way to my car and plug my phone onto the aux cord and a few songs from Green day play through the speakers. I hadn't really thought about what I was going to talk to her about but one thing was about her being so distant with us, with me. As I drove to the building, the butterflies in my stomach irrupted all over. I sound like such a bitch, but its true. I had gotten to the apartment building in a few minutes. I knocked on her door waiting for her to answer. Nirvana's  beautiful face appeared at the door with a confused look. "Luke? What are you doing here? Its almost 11:15." Nirvana checks her phone. "I know. Sorry but we need to talk." I state. "Can't this wait till tomorrow mo---.." "No this really can't. I won't be able to sleep with the fact that this needs to be said now." I interrupt her. "Well unfortunately that's not my problem." She says about to close the door in my face. I put my foot to stop it. "Look I really need to talk to you Ana. Please?" I beg my best. "Fine. Come on in." She let's me pass through the door. "What do you want to talk about that's so important it couldn't wait till tomorrow morning?" Ana shuts the t.v off. I clear my throat and speak. "Why have you been so distant with us or with me actually?" I ask. "Look, I just i've been really busy working on the magazine." Lies. I already know her so well. "You are the worst liar Nirvana. Now tell me what's really bothering you." I demand. "Its just that I have been thinking about everything in the past. I've had some weird feelings." She responds. "My love for you hasn't changed. I know your probably asking why you should believe me after me breaking up with you and still choosing to be with Aleisha. Our kisses that we have shared so far have made me think about you all the time."

Her eyes are wide open by this point. "I would like to believe you Lucas but honestly, you broke my heart. You can't just make me change my mind so quick." She fiddles with her fingers. "I can work for it." I put her hands in mine. Her head then looks up at me and she removes her hands from mine. "It's not that easy to trust someone again Hemmings. Don't you get that?" Nirvana's voice gets a little louder than expected. "But---..." She interrupts me. "Luke, I'm never gonna get that image of you cheating on me, the day of the airport as well out of my head. Those days were the worst for me! Mostly because that's the day you chose who you wanted to be with." Tears start streaming down her face one by one. I made her cry again? Way to go Luke Hemmings. My memory goes back to that day at the party, how she slapped me when she caught us, the next morning at the airport, how she was crying like there was no tomorrow. "And you think it wasn't hard for me?! I lived these past 2 years with the fact that I chose the wrong person to be with!" I finally crack. "Now I realized that in these past few weeks that I still love you. I don't think I've ever stopped." That caught Ana's attention. "W-what?" She sniffles. "Aleisha was just someone to test. I haven't stopped loving you for a moment." I grab her hands again. This time she keeps them there. "Nirvana, I love you. We were made for loving each other." I spill my heart out.

A huge weight has been lifted off my shoulders. Her breathing has become more harder by the second. Her hands leave mine and get placed on the both sides of my face as her lips smash onto mine. This kiss is not only very unexpected but its also very lustful. We know where this is headed.


- Nirvana's p.o.v. -
I don't know what happened but I just kissed Luke with so much passion, only because my hormones are raging. Maybe. My tongue slid against his bottom lip asking for entrance, he allowed it. I tried to take control but as usual Luke always finds a way to do it. He bit my bottom lip making me moan into the kiss. I positioned myself on the sofa so that he could get on top of me. His lips began to move towards my jawline and to my neck. I moaned louder because he had found my sweet spot. I already knew he had left a love bite on the space between my neck and shoulder. I tugged on the bottom of his shirt. He took it off and threw it on the floor. "L-luke, let's take this to my room." I breathe through his lips. "Jump baby girl." He whispers in my ear with his deep raspy voice. I did as he said, his hands went to the back of my thighs so that I wouldn't fall. My arms wrapped around his neck. We made it to my room. He dropped me down onto my unmade bed. I sat at the edge of the bed undoing his black skinny jeans. As I kissed his might I say, formed torso.

"Yes baby." He sighed. My shirt was asking to be taken off. Its like he read my mind because he tugged on it. I raised my arms so he could remove it. He pushed me down on the bed as I got comfortable. I grinded myself on him. His bottom lip was between his teeth as he was groaning. "I need you babe." I close my eyes taking in all this. Luke kissed and sucked on my collarbones, my chest and down my torso. His fingers slithered onto the top of my shorts slipping them off. "Are you sure you want to do this?" His eyes look straight at mine. Ugh just fuck me already before I change my mind! "Okay then." He chuckles. "Wha---.." "You were thinking out loud." He laughs. I really have to stop thinking out loud. I picked myself up from the bed slightly for me to take my bra off. Luke looked for a condom in his pocket. The foiled packet in his hands. He took it out of the wrapper, took off his boxers, and rolled the condom on his hard on. I let him take my underwear off.

The tip of his hard member teased my clit. "Stop teasing Hemmings." I tell him. He pushed himself inside me. I'm not used to the feeling of him anymore. Luke's hips grinded against mine as he moved back and fourth, in and out. I moaned every time he hit the special pleasure spot. I leaned up to sloppily kiss him. "Harder Luke." I moaned louder. He did as I said, the movements became more rough. The wave of pleasure would hit every single time that I didn't even know I had. "Fuck yes." His eyes closed. There was a burn in the pit of my stomach telling me that my climax was coming soon. "L-Luke, I'm gonna c-cum." I stuttered. He sped up his thrusts, eventually I had climaxed. I guess his wasn't there yet but it should be because his member had twitched inside of me.

"I'm coming, damn." Luke breathed. Luke removed himself from me and took the condom off. I can't believe I just did that. He began to get dressed as I put my bra and underwear back on. "So um." I spoke. "I have to get going. I'll see you later." I kiss his lips and he walks out of my bedroom. As all realization hit me, I thought about what this meant. Do I still love him? No Nirvana your just tired, that's all. I covered my face in frustration. How am I supposed to sleep with all these thoughts eating me alive? I just had sex with the one person I warned myself to stay away from? I don't want this to mean anything. What if he breaks my heart again?

Notes

Hiiillloo fam. I hope you all enjoyed this chapter. Some more smut for ya'll !!! :) :) Luke and Nirvana really need to stop denying everything !!! Lol. That's it for today. Good night XOXOXO

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