Everything I didn't say☆L.H

35. Forgive me

-  Luke's P.O.V -

I always thought Nirvana made me out to be the bad guy. When in reality she did something bad as well. Hiding the fact that her and I were going to have a baby together is wrong in so many ways. She had an abortion. She never told me about it. I feel mad, sad, confused, and betrayed. I was in my room strumming away on my guitar. "Hey bro." Calum walks into my room. He starts looking through my drawers to borrow a shirt most likely. "You look like shit." He tells me. "Thanks asshole. Stating the obvious." I reply and put my guitar down. "What's up your ass?" He asks. "You and Ruby wouldn't have been the only parents in our group." Is all I say. "What? I don't understand." Cal looks at me with a confused look plastered on his face. "The summer that everything happened between me and Nirvana, when we went on tour, she was pregnant." I sigh. "What the fuck?! Are you serious?"  His mouth gaped wide open. "Yeah. She kept it to herself. She wanted nothing to do with me so she decided she wanted to get an abortion and never tell anybody about it." I explain to him as I comb my fingers through my hair. "How did you find out about this?" "She told me herself yesterday. We had an argument and I walked out. I couldn't deal with all that shit." I answer. "Luke I'm sorry. It wasn't her place to not tell you she was pregnant. Although you know she had her reasons for it. Sure they weren't great but she had just became independent, stuff was totally fucked up then." Calum pats my back. "I'm just pissed that she never told me." I said. "Hey Luke--... what's going on?" Ashton opens the rest of my door. Michael was right behind him. Well, I might as well tell the guys what happened.

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- Nirvana's p.o.v -

"It's gonna be okay babe. He's gonna get over it." Bryana reassures me. The girls were all at my place. I told them about everything. "I need to talk to him." I say. "Let's go then. I have to get home and eat. The baby has really weird food cravings." Ruby says rubbing her stomach. We all share a laugh and get up. We walk to my car and I let everybody in. "This isn't fair that Ruby gets to ride shot gun from now on." Marley complains. "I'm pregnant bitch. I can't be in the back." Ruby laughs. We drive to the house listening to music. Once we get inside, Ruby goes straight to the kitchen. "Do not eat my chocolate pudding!" Marley tells Ruby. "I can't help it. The baby wants what it wants." She says. Ashton, Calum, and Michael come downstairs to kiss the girls. "Sup Ana." They greet me. "Did he tell you guys?" I ask. "Yeah. He's really upset about it." Michael tells me. "Yeah I know. Do you guys think I'm a bad person for doing what I did?" I ask them. "Of course not. You didn't have the intentions of hurting him. You didn't know what to do at the time." Ashton puts a hand on my shoulder. "I'm gonna go talk to him. Hopefully he doesn't chew my ass out of his room." "Don't worry, we calmed him down." Calum lets me know. I made my way up to his room. His door was slightly open. I walked in to find him laying down on his bed looking through his phone and listening to music from American Satan. Luke faced me and sat up. I walk over to his bed and sit next to him. "I'm really sorry Luke. I never meant for this to hurt you." I begin. "I'm just upset that you never told me. I know you think that even if you had told me nothing would've changed between us but I believe it would've." He starts fumbling with his hands. I place my hands on his. "The truth is I wasn't sure what we would've done. We were young. You left on tour, I was barely getting my career started as well. I'm not even sure we were ready for it." I say honestly. "If I hadn't brought up the subject, were you ever going to tell me?" He asks. "Honestly? Most likely. It killed me to keep such a secret from everybody and especially you considering you're the love of my life. I don't think I would've been able to keep it from you." I look at him dead in the eyes. His eyes went from grey back to blue. "I'm sorry I freaked out on you yesterday. " Luke says. I put my hand on the back of his head and move my face closer to his, our foreheads together. "I never want to lie to you ever again. I love you too much. Forgive me?" I say as a tear escapes. "It's okay baby. I forgive you." Luke wipes it away and pecks my lips. "I love you Nirvana." He whispers to me. "And I love you Luke." I reply and lean in to kiss him. His tongue soon makes it's way into my mouth controlling as usual. His hand roams itself to my waist. I place mine under his jawline. "Come here." He whispers on my lips and pulls me to straddle him as he was still sitting down. "Wait." I break it apart and get off of him. I walk over to the door and lock it. "We don't want anyone walking in on us do we?" I chuckle and so does he. "I suppose not." He replies. I walk over to him and continue to sit on him and kiss him. I begin to grind myself on him earning a groan from Luke. He unbuttons my shirt to kiss my collarbones and chest. I take it off letting Luke take his shirt off as well. He peppers kisses on my neck turning me on more. He lays down with me still on top of him. I return the favor and kiss his neck and down his body. I leave a small love bite on his lower abdomen. I smirk when I kiss a trail back up to his jawline. I bring my lips back to his as he turns us over and hovers over me. Instead of kissing me first he goes down to my navel and begins to lay wet kisses there grabbing my right boob and giving it a squeeze. A breathy moan left my mouth. When he makes his way back up he kisses between the valley of my boobs and licks a trail to my neck. He starts to suck on the skin there making me moan. He soon kisses me again unbuckling his belt and unbuttoning my jeans. My hands go to his back feeling his skin against my fingertips. I helped him take my pants off and I took his off along with our underwear bringing us under the sheets. I undo my bralette.

"Ride me baby." He says turning us over. When Luke and I had sex most of time he was the one to be on top. Of course there were times that I would be on top. I guess this time it was my turn. I felt Luke's hard member inside. I began to grind a little to get the pace moving. I moved myself more making Luke groan. "Fuck yeah." Luke closes his eyes in pure bliss. I soon felt a burning sensation in the pit of my stomach warning me that my climax was coming. "Luke I-I'm gonna cum." I ride out my climax. "Me too, fuck! Me too." He whispers out of breath. I remove myself from him so he could come. He grabs the condom laying on his nightstand and empties himself in it. Once he's done he lays next to me. I place my head on his arm and he wraps his right arm around me. I kiss his lips. "I love you." Luke brushes some hair out of my face. "I love you." I say and smile. "It's been quite a while hasn't it?" Luke chuckles. I chuckle and say "yeah. Since the goth party." Luke and I haven't had sex since then. "We could literally say we've had make up sex before." I laugh. "I know. We were literally arguing yesterday and we made up and had sex." Luke laughs as well. "It was great Hemmings." I say. "It really was Harris." He smiles and kisses my forehead. "Come on. Let's get dressed and go tell everybody we had make up sex." Luke reaches down to get his boxers and my undergarments. "Oh my god we're not actually gonna tell everybody we just fucked right?" I laugh again. "I'm just kidding but let's go downstairs and join everybody." He puts his pants on. After we get dressed and I comb out my hair, we go downstairs where everybody was getting ready to leave to who knows where. "Hey guys. Where are you going?" Luke asks. "John told us to get to the studio. They're gonna talk to us about the tour or some shit like that." Calum explains to us. "So how was the make up sex?" Michael asks us. "We did not have make up sex." I say. "Yes you guys did. You have a big love bite on your neck Ana." He replies and I take out my phone and look at it. "Oh my god." I begin to get red do to the fact that everybody knows we were having sex. " Here I have you covered." Marley laughs and hands me concealer from her bag. "Thank you best friend." I chuckle. "Wait don't cover it yet. Let me take a picture of it." Luke says and quickly snaps a picture.

"Why do you want a picture of it?" I cover it up. "So I could add it to our collection of polaroids." He replied. "Luke!" I smack his arm. "Nobody knew we had inappropriate polaroids." I chuckle again. "I did what the fuck do you mean?" Ashton chimes in. "What? How?" Luke asks. "You had a picture that you took together of yours and Nirvana's neck with a little love bite on both of you. You had the polaroid on you're vanity dresser when we were on tour. "Busted!" Calum laughs making all of us laugh. "You see, I always thought of you even when I was with Aleisha." Luke wraps his arm around me. I lean up and kiss him. "Goals." Ashton laughs. "Oh my god, let's stop talking about this and get going ." Nirvana says covering her face as she laughs. "You guys need Jesus."Michael grabs Marley's hand as all of us walk out the door. All of us laugh harder.