Everything I didn't say☆L.H

23. What are we?

- Luke's P.O.V -

I woke up this morning feeling really good. I could be in a better mood but I'm still kind of confused from last night. I had sex with Nirvana. I'm not even 100% sure what the fuck our relationship is now. Did I ruin it or did I make something of it? What am I supposed to tell the guys now? Do I even tell them that I had sex with her? Who knows, I'll just ignore it until they ask. I need to talk to her about all of this and find out where we're at. I go to the restroom to wash my face, fix my hair, and brush my teeth. I walk downstairs, the smell of coffee hits me right in the face. "Sup dude, there's coffee on table." Calum says sipping from his mug. "Yeah I know. I could smell Ruby's famous coffee from upstairs." I chuckle serving myself some into a mug. "So I'm guessing the sex wasn't good if you had to come back home pretty early last night?" Michael asks. I shouldn't tell them yet unless Nirvana is cool with it. "Um yeah. Something like that." I drink from my coffee. "It was quite the opposite actually." I mumble to myself. "What was that?" Ashton says. "Oh nothing." I reply. I"ll talk to her tomorrow night.

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Her hazel green brown eyes shinning through in the pale moon light. Her tanned skin glistening from just one lamp light on. The kisses she gave me were so glass like that if she tried, they could break me. Kissing down her body was such a magical experience that I hadn't gotten in a while. Our bodies molding into one as we made the act of love, or just sex in this case. I need to know what we could be. I need to ---..

"Luke dude!" Calum snaps me out of my head. "Hey man are you okay?" Ashton asks. "Yeah I'm sorry I just- it's not important." I clear my throat. "Bro we know you already, but if you don't want to talk about it, we get it." Michael pats my shoulder. I've been dozing off all day, thinking about Nirvana, last night, and about us. I need to see her now. I know I said I would wait till at least tomorrow but fuck it. It's going to be almost midnight but I really don't give a shit. I get my car keys, phone, and head into the garage which is where the cars are parked. I unlock it and start the ignition. I play some music from my phone while I drive to her apartment.

When I finally get there, I run inside the building and head toward her apartment. I knock on it gently and wait for her to answer. I could hear the locks being unlocked and in 3 seconds her face appears through the door. "Luke? What are- we are not doing this again." She gets ready to close the door. "No Nirvana. Look I'm sorry to bother you late at night again but we need to talk." I say. "Na ah, last time you came around this time and said that, we ended up fucking so no thanks but good night." I put my hand on the maroon door once again. "Please just hear me out." I beg. "You've got 5 minutes Hemmings." She sighs. She doesn't let me inside so I guess we're doing this at the door then. "What are we?" I blow the question from my lips. She looks down at the ground and doesn't speak. "Come on, you can't honestly tell me you don't have feelings for me either. I mean I don't want to look at yesterday as a hook up." I say getting a little cold. "You know what Luke, look I can honestly say that I don't have feelings for you." She says plainly without emotion and emphasising the word 'CAN'. "If I did have feelings for you, I would have told you by now." Nirvana crosses her arms over her chest. "Yeah but---..." She interrupts me. "But nothing. Let's just forget about what happened yesterday. You just needed to fuck and I was just looking for lust. It was just a plain hook up. We'll just go back to being friends." I nod my head. "Fine, whatever you say." I roll my eyes. They were getting watery so I needed something to not make me cry in front of a girl. I didn't want to seem pussy whipped.

"And please don't tell the guys about us. I won't tell the girls okay? Not even Marley." Nirvana clears her throat. "Fine by me." I sass back. She closes the door and leaves me there. I know she was lying about her not having feelings for me. I can see right through her. She hasn't changed since the day I met her. I know her better than anybody else. But whatever, she wants to play that game, I'll play it as well. Right now, I need a carton of cigarettes.
Notes

Hola amigos :) Hopefully you guys liked this chapter. 2 updates in one day?!! Boom, that just happened. If you know where I got that from, your awesome. <3 Anyways, what's wrong with Nirvana? Why would she deny her feelings? I wouldn't. I love Luke Hemmings more than anybody in this world! I would die for him lol xP Really Luke..... Cigarettes? He's headed down the drain.