kardashian | h.s.

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i walk into my mother's house and am greeted by the camera crew pointing their cameras in my face. i internally groan at the sight of them. unlike my mom and sisters, i don't like being a "reality star". i want to act but i'm afraid people won't take me seriously since i'm a kardashian. i sing sometimes too, but haven't pursued that for the same reason.

"hi, kourtney. hey, scott." i smile as i walk into the kitchen. "penelope!" i cheer as my niece toddles over to me. i love penelope like she's mine. "where's everyone else?" i ask kourtney as i pick up penelope. "they're all waiting for you in the living room." she tells me which instantly confuses me. kourt senses my confusion and tells me, "i'm not supposed to tell you but just be prepared. mom wanted me to be there but we have a family photo shoot at 3 so we're heading out. good luck." she hugs me and we kiss each other's cheeks. i put penelope down and she grabs kourtney's hand as they exit the house, leaving me confused and not wanting to enter the living room.

after a moment of contemplating just leaving, i decide that that would only piss my mother off. "uh, hi guys." i say as i walk into the living room, seeing my mother, khloe, kim, kendall, my dad, kylie, and rob sitting on the couch. i'm surprised to see my dad and rob there seeing as my parents are in the process of getting a divorce, and robs been hiding from everyone for a while now. he hasn't talked to any of us besides khloe, since he's staying at her house, and he's been refusing to go out in public or be photographed.

"hi, sweetheart. can you sit down for a minute? we want to talk to you." i sit down next to kendall and give her a look, trying to get some sort of explanation from her without speaking. she shrugs lightly, indicating that she doesn't know what's going on. "what is this? an intervention?" i ask, part sarcastically but also part serious. "no, honey. i'm just worried about you. we're worried about you. i- we just feel that you haven't been open with yourself and your emotions about the breakup."

i roll my eyes. "this is about justin?" i give kim an are you serious? look and she smiles solemnly at me. okay so kim's on mom's side. "i just don't want you pretending like everything's okay, when it isn't. you and justin were together for a long time, and it hurts to break up with someone, especially with how much you guys have been through." kim explains and i start to feel tears build up in my eyes but i blink them back, not wanting to cry on camera.

"it hurts me to see you hurt and i want to do anything i can to help you heal. what he did to you was terrible. you were there for justin, even when he was going down the wrong path, and after all of that, he cheats on you? i know that hurts, honey." my dad says, sympathy dripping from his voice.

"guys, this is an extremely sensitive thing for me to talk about right now and it's still really new to me. i haven't been single for two years so i'm in the process of adjusting. i'm going to be okay, it just hurts right now. justin-" i'm cut off by my own crying. "justin broke me. and after i've done so much for him and been through so much just to be with him. he doesn't know how much shit i've been getting everyday for the past two years just being with him. he called me last night and told me he still loved me. i still love him. i think a part of me always will, but i know that being with him it's not good for me right now. i'm not going back to him."

i break down, forgetting momentarily about the cameras that are recording my breakdown and the fact that this will be on tv in a few months. kenny wraps her arms around my shoulders and pulls me towards her. i stop crying after a moment and pull away from her, looking around at my family, who all look very upset and worried, except for rob who just looks uncomfortable. rob and i have never been very close. the sight of him being all awkward makes me laugh. "what's so funny?" my mom asks through small giggles. "rob- looks so uncomfortable." i say in between hysterical laughter, making everyone else laugh too, except for kim and my dad who don't look super amused.

"thank you guys for everything. i appreciate your love and support. thank you for caring about me." i say as we all stand up. "well of course, honey. we're your family. we're always going to care about you." my mom says and i hug her. khloe joins in, then kendall, then kylie, then dad, then kim, and lastly, rob. "i think kai and i are gonna head back to the house." she gives me a look like she's asking for my permission and i just simply nod my head.

"okay, girls. don't forget, kendall. you have a photo shoot tomorrow." my mom says and kendall nods. "alright, love you guys!" she says and i add "i love you guys, thank you for everything." they all tell us they love us and we leave. kendall and i get into her car and she backs out of the driveway.

"kj, i'm so sorry about today." ken starts. for whatever reason, we call each other "kj" even though those are the initials of 4 people in our family. mom didn't tell me what was happening. she just told me she wanted me to make an appearance in an episode cause i've been busy lately." she explains and i laugh as i tell her that was mom's exact excuse to me. "why would she lie to you though?" i ask, confused. "she knew i'd tell you what was going on, i bet that's what it was." i agree with her before turning on the radio and singing along.