Who Said I'm Jealous?

Chapter 7

"A-a homunculus?" I asked.

"Yes. You're a homunculus. Meaning you're not human. And you never will be human."

I stared at the words in front of me. I read it over and over. It all made sense, but I was too dense to accept the fact that I was never a human. For over a year, living with Becca, she made me feel human. Only to figure out, I'm not even human. Then why do I have these human like feelings towards Becca? Why do I feel like she's my mother? She was never my mother! It's just her caring nature that made her feel motherly.

"Are there any others like me?"

"Six other. The two that I know are Lust and Gluttony. The other five are Sloth, Pride, Wrath, Greed, and you, Envy."

"Where are the others?" I asked.

"I do not know where they are."

I growled and grabbed my things, "Come on, Y/N."

She got up and we walked outside and towards the train station.

"We're leaving so soon?" she asked.

"Yeah. We're going home. I'm going home back to Becca and you can return to your boyfriend."

"He's not my boyfriend."

"Oh come on, Y/N. Admit it! He is! I saw your text messages between the two of you. Saying you loved him and he loved you. Don't try to hide it, Y/N."

She sighed and didn't say anything until we made it to the midway point of our village. We stopped and got something to eat.

"Envy?"

"What?"

"It was nice coming with you on this trip."

"Tell me, why did you come?"

"You looked lonely and you needed a friend."

"I don't need friends, Y/N. What's the point of having friends if they're eventually going to leave you for someone better? That's going to be the same way with you and your boyfriend."

"That's not true! He loves me for me!"

"He only loves you because he shows you around like you're a trophy. 'Look at me! I have one of the smartest alchemists in the world! Bet you can't top that!' Meanwhile, he'll find a better and smarter alchemist and drop you for her. Believe me, Y/N. That's how men are."

"Well what about you?"

"What about me?"

"Why are you giving me this advice when you never had a relationship?"

"I sort of remember my older brother bringing home a girl. They were together for a year until he came home with a more attractive girl. I asked him why he dumped the girl he loved for a year. He told me that she was getting real clingy and didn't let him do anything. I know for a fact that wasn't true. She was the sweetest person in the world. I liked her enough to hopefully one day call her my sister. Apparently, he found the other one and they got together. I found my brother's ex and asked her what happened. She told me that when they were out on a date, he found a girl more attractive than she could ever be. They were eating when he said he was going to the bathroom. He walked out on her that night and found the lady he saw. After that, I never saw my brother's ex. So you see, Y/N, typical men will do that."

"What about you? I know you can't be like that."

"Y/N, I'm not even human! I'm a damn homunculus! Why would you ever think I could be loved?"

"Because, if you take away what you are and think what you have, you're not that bad of a person."

I looked at her, a bit confused, "What do you mean by that?"

"Say I never found out you were a homunculus and I saw you as you are. I see a boy who's struggling and in dire need of some love and answers. And underneath that jealous nature, there is a caring nature. Like Becca."

"You have no right to do that to me. You think what you want to think about me. I'll let the world think that too. If they want to see me only as a homunculus, so be it. If you want to look at me that way, so be it. I don't care."

"Deep inside you do care, Envy."

"No I don't! Drop this caring girl act and open your eyes, Y/N! I will never care about anyone in my life! The only one who deserves my care is Becca! She's given me something I can't get anywhere else! What do you have to give me?"

The train arrived and we paid for the meal. We got a small train car at the end. Y/N and I were sitting in the far corner. Away from everyone else. We were to arrive at the village in a few hours.

"Envy?" Y/N asked.

"What is it now?"

"I know you do care about me. You can say you don't, but I know you do."

"What is your proof?"

"That one night in the train car. I was having a rough time sleeping since it was cold. You took out one of the blankets you packed and put on on me. The run in with the men at Dublith. You told me to get out of there and find somewhere safe to stay until you dealt with them."

I stared out the window, "Your point is?"

"You say you don't care about people. But you do care about two people. Becca and me."

"Y/N, look. I don't care about you or anyone. I told you the reason why I care about Becca. So what do you have to give me?"

"Something later in future years."

"What?"

"Nothing. I said I could give you something when we get home."

"And that is?"

"I don't know. I'll have to figure it out."

I sighed, "Alright."

There was something about him, I thought. Something that should make me scared of him, but it was the complete opposite. I'm not scared of him. Not even when he yells at me. Not when he beats the shit out of people who are harming him. None of that made me scared of him. What scared me, was losing him. Wait, losing him? He's not even considered my friend. Why would I be afraid of losing him? Is there something else that I don't know about him? Or is it something I don't know about myself.

"You okay over there, Y/N?" he asked.

I was ripped from my thoughts and gave a light smile at him. I could feel my cheeks warming up slightly, "Just thinking, Envy."

"Alright."