Jealousy | 2won [✔]

Alone

Playlist
1. Sit next to me by Foster the People
2.  On top of the world by Imagine Dragons
3. Whatever it take by Imagine Dragons
4. Don't wanna know by Maroon 5
5. Rude by Magic
6. Broken by Trisha Yearwood

Hyungwon's POV

"I'm sorry." Wonho has said this to me for hundredth time already and honestly, it's driving me insane. I know that he cares for me and he wants to be here for me, but I want to be alone.

I've been stuck in this house of ours, back in Haven, for four days now. I've been sulking and moping around. After telling Bambam that his sister had died crushed me, the little boy collapsed into my arms as he buried his face into me. Making my shirt soaking wet. I didn't mind it.

The two have been in my life for so long, i never thought that they no longer would be involved in my story. I've never prayed, never ask God for anything. But i did. I asked him to keep the rest of us safe, i asked him to look over Bammie, to take care of Mina up in heaven. But of course, faith is what i needed to keep me sane and i wasn't sure if I had it yet.

"Wonho I'm fine, seriously." Lies, anything that involved with me being okay was a lie. I wasn't okay. 

"If you were fine, you would come outside. You haven't gotten fresh air." He says and i roll my eyes as i stand up from the bed i was laying on to walk to the bathroom. I close the door and lock it behind me before leaving against the sink.

"Fresh air my ass," i mumble as I start the cold water and fill my hands with it to splash my face. My body was aching from laying around the past few days.

"Hyungwon, come out. I love you." Wonho's voice was soft and soothing, but I didn't want to come out. I wanted to be alone.

"Bambam is here." He continues and i froze, that poor boy. Why is here?

Just hearing that he was in the house made me feel weird, does this mean I have to look after him now? Seeing that he had no other family, Mina's brother never gave a shit about her and after her parents died when we were in high school, he left her, she had to get a job and take over the house. My mom and i tried our very best to keep the stress off of her, but it was no use, everything came back onto and she had to leave the house. Making them stay with me for a while.

"Hyungwon?" I hear Bam say, his little voice sounded sad and desperate at the same time.

I decided to man up and face him. I dry my hands with a hand towel and open the door. Wonho was sitting on the bed and Bambam was leaning against my dresser with Marie beside him clutching onto his hand. Are they a thing now ?

"Yes?"

"Marie and I was wondering if you would like to come visit Mina's grave with us?" He asks and my eyes froze inside his, how could he be so calm and ask me such question? How can he expect me to go ahead and get over her death? To just go back to my not so normal life and forget about her. Because I can't.

"I dont think today is the right day to do that, Bammie."

"And why not?" He asks as he stops leaning against the dresser to stan towards me fiercely, with crossed arms. He was mad and sad, he wanted everyone to be okay with this. But i wasn't.

"Because I'm not ready that's why, so don't come ask me some silly question again untill I am."

"You're a dick," he spat at me before storming out of my house with Marie following him closely behind.

I just laugh at his repsonce.

"Be just called me a dick."

"I would've too," Wonho mumbles and i turn to glare at him, "you call me that anyways," i say and he grins.

I didn't want to be playful today, i didn't want to be all lovey dovey with him today, not for a while actually. I can't be next to him like that, it's not right that I'll be happy and Mina is not here for me to gossip to her.

To tell her all the things Wonho and I will do, to ask for advice. I'm lost without her. 

"I'm sad Wonho."

"I know you are baby." He says as he lays down on the bed patting the spot next to him, i glance at his face and sigh before walking over to him to lay down beside him. He wraps his arms around my shoulder and brings me close making me lay on his shoulder.

"Thank you."

"For?" Wonho asks as he kisses the top of my head, i close my eyes and reach for his hand that was placed on his chest, and intertwine our hands.

"For loving me."

"Always." He replies while gripping my hand tighter.

I'm back :)
~Madi