The White Tulip (Symbolism Of My Feelings)

What's Wrong With You, Kim Myungsoo?!

Honey

L that we know... is f*cking weird. For the past few months, he has been doing things that no one would have thought of and I'm still not used to it! I don't know if he suddenly changed or he has been this strange for a long time now and I didn't know it from the stat but he certainly grabbed my attention much more than before. For example, a week after the feather incident he was involved in a fight between some gangsters outside the school. Everyone was watching with curiosity. No one informed what the commotion was about but I kept watching them see what would happen further. One of the gangsters was about to hit L but the latter held instantly his fist in the next minute and clenched it tightly without showing tension on his face but emotionlessness instead. Blood covered both of their hands. The gangster cried in pain and backed off. His mates, having no desire to experience the same, followed him in horror. This made the audience shocked, amazed and also terrified.

And since our school has television hosts, they announced there was fighting involved Kirin High (our rival school) and Seoul High. L did something which would provoke the students from the other building and the bullies arrived in front of our gate to teach him a lesson but after seeing the representative of Seoul High's capabilities their hurried retreat was witnessed, to our shock. The school news even said:

''Kim Myungsoo also known as L is our Korean Superman.''

God... I hate Superman! He can't even dress normally. I mean, he wears his pants first then his underwear! (still no perverted thoughts).

Every individual knew about the happening and praised him. Girls drooled on him more and more after they knew he was also strong and that immediately tells that people with incredible strength are sexy, although I could not agree fully with this statement. Some of the teachers were actually worried that he was drawn in trouble but, eventually, they forgave him and told him to take care of himself. I couldn't believe what befell in front of my eyes and asked him how he didn't even feel much pressure when he squeezed the Kirin student's hand. He in return winked at me and told me it's between professionals only. I chuckled and thought how corny that sounded. And I never received the answer or my question. But it didn't stop me from making up reasons for his amazing demonstration.

Someday in May Suzy, Sungjong and I were inside a cafe. I remember we were at the sweet small store, painted in pink, yellow and light blue, famous for their delicious muffins and cupcakes. We were talking about random stuff when a small white pigeon landed on our table. It was very beautiful due to its color without any spots or shades, remarkably pristine. I tried to touch it without it noticing but suddenly Sungjong sneezed and it flew away. Our gazes followed the bird. It flew up to a tall building. On the rooftop was a figure which I recognized. He was lingering on the edge of the building, his hands lifted which his body made a T-shape. He was standing there and breathed in and out slowly and deeply. Did the person lose their mind?! I thought he was reasonable.

''L, GET YOUR BUTT DOWN HERE,'' I screamed. Yes, it was L. Surprisingly, that guy smirked and shouted: ''AS YOU WISH, HONEY!''

Then the shocking moment came: HE STARTED WALKING SLOWLY ALONG AND DOWN THE BUILDING. OMG?! I didn't want him to do it THAT way. People stared, wanted to know what will happen to him. However, he didn't fall. Strange sh*t happened.

''OPPA! YOU'LL GET HURT.'' Suzy shouted. ''I'M GOING TO CALL THE POLICE AND AMBULANCE. JUST STAY THERE...'' Sungjong and I looked at her furiously. REALLY SUZY! Have you lost your mind?! He CAN'T stay in one spot, he will DIE! Or can he...

''NO NEED, REALLY! I'LL BE FINE.'' He continued walking. It looked a little like the scene in Titanic... Suzy was about to call the police but L took her phone. He landed with a one-meter jump. The children peered at him in astonishment. Their parents and the rest of the crowd only stare at him without emotion. ''Told you, no need.''

''L-oppa, you need to be checked and make sure you're OK. I was so... I mean we were so worried about you.'' She emphasized the word ''we'' so there wasn't a misunderstanding. We all knew she liked him.

''I've done that a million times. Actually, I did this because I want to impress you.''

What?! He's officially not a human. Sheesh. And he made me worry a lot! And that is not a way to impress us!

(gone to get a glass of water)

Back to my memories again...

On the summer vacation, my friends, auntie and I were on Jeju island. The place was wonderful, the view of the hotels, beaches and exotic trees made my thoughts of school disappear. We had so much fun there. Lying on the sun beds, sunbathing, swimming... Relaxing... One day when it was time for bed, I brushed my teeth, wore my pajamas and I was about to drift off, someone texted me. Unknown number... Who would it be? The message said: ''You're cute in this pajamas, babe ;D ''.

WTF?! I looked around the room and opened every furniture, looked under the bed, opened doors, windows so rapidly I almost broke and ruined everything. I thought that Suzy and Sungjong were joking with me but even if it were them, they weren't anywhere! I panicked and was about to reply to the person when the mysterious man sent me a message again. That message amused me: ''Write in the contacts as L. Good night, sweetie :).''

Oh mah gawd. It was L?! Without considering further I covered myself with the blanket and rolled over the bed. I was extremely happy... But wait... Is he here?! I searched for him everywhere and in front of my room as the last spot; he was nowhere to be seen. I took a glimpse at the keyhole, assuming he saw me through it but it didn't feel right. It was too small and the bed wasn't into view. I wondered how or where he saw me. I called him to hear his explanation of the weird situation but his voice messenger answered instead. I finally gave up and decided to text him when I wake up.

The next morning I sent him a message as I promised but no text was returned back to me. I told the story to my buddies and auntie when we breakfasted in a cool cafe on the beach. They were utterly confused and surprised. Suzy and Sungjong made a plan to find him and make him spill the bean about the previous day and maybe come spend time with us. But when we asked every hotel and house about L, the people shook their heads and claimed that they hadn't seen him. We looked for him in every store; my aunt looked at the bars. We told her not to do it; it was dangerous for her to enter such places. But she promised that she would be back without a scratch. In fact, when she came out, she pulled two ears of two men each in each hand of hers. I really despised such perverted, disgusting males and she had spellbound us with her harsh treatment towards those guys. She told us she trained Karate and other martial arts. I've the coolest aunt ever. But let's go back to L...

We found out that he... was not even in Jeju island. I was about to have a nosebleed. Where the heck was that guy?! Also at some time, I thought of something... how could he know my number? I didn't give it to him. I asked both of my friends if they had given my phone number. They, with confused faces, said no. That guy... I tried to call him but his phone was either battery-less or his voice messenger came out. And we were planning to have a good time together for nothing. I was terrified as I was afraid something bad would happen to him...

Kim Myungsoo. If you're still alive, be prepared for your torture when we meet after the vacation...