The White Tulip (Symbolism Of My Feelings)

Apology And 'Miniclip' Time

Honey

Buzz~.

Exhaustion and fell upon me before I sporadically sensed a vibration that tickled my leg from my phone. I picked it up out of the pocket as I stood in front of my home. I was coming from Infinite's practice room after having a great day there. L still ignored me as if I was never present and kept hanging with Krystal.

Whoa, whoa, whoa. I didn't say Krystal was somebody to hate. She's a very decent person. It's just L spent too much time with her. I reckoned his plans were to have some time together with me but it seemed he had the least interest in me that night.

Somehow I was a bit sad that day. That day shouldn't have gone wasted like that. I really wanted to show my dedication and feelings toward him; I wanted to learn more about his daily life, I wished to be aware of what he was feeling so I could share all of his emotions with him. I desired to have some kind of close connection with him, something we both could rely on peacefully without any grueling obstacles in front of us, something we could never let it escape. But all of my hopes vanished because of the incident at the bubble tea store? He was angry at me for no legitimate reason. It wasn't my fault he caught me interacting with his member. What made him think I was developing a romantic affection toward Sunggyu-oppa? The leader was not to blame, either. He merely offered to pay for my drink nicely and L found it threatening. I couldn't grasp that.

I took out my cell. I stared at the device, not believing who was calling me. The person who I least expected.

L...

What now? What did he want from me? Now you are looking for me? This is tiresome, to be honest.

I didn't answer the phone and shook my head in disbelief and disappointment. I got inside the house. My auntie fell asleep long time ago; her snoring from above implied it to the entire household. I went to the bathroom, took a shower, brushed my teeth and threw myself in bed. The only thing I wanted then was to sleep in peace and worry about the ordeal the next day. L has to wait.

I almost arrived in Dreamland. My body was flying upwards in the air and strove to appear to the delusional universe where all doors to inventive dreams inhabited and where everything is possible once you enter one or each of them. However, during my journey to this delusional place somebody dared to call me. I lazily opened my eyes and groaned. The hell, who is still awake at this time? I reached for my mobile which I placed on the nightstand after several trials of my hand seeking for it. The screen was incredibly bright and I instantly became blind for a few seconds. Not him again. I put it back in the previous place and went back to sleep.

Buzz~!

The burning sun, the cloudless sky - it was a day when it looked like summer. Mirage-waves floating in the air. Humid weather, sweat trailed on my face and I was hot. On the ground were some flowers which were lingering from the heat. And I was standing dumbfounded. Wasn't there any shade or a cool place to head to? I felt a freezing presence that made me shiver. I turned around seeing a black spot under an enormous rock which was lying on another huger one in shape of a rectangle. In the middle of nowhere. I paced several steps, after that, I ran towards my desired location...

Buzz~!

NO! Not now!

I woke up... frustrated.

''Hello!'' I answered my phone through teeth.

''We need to talk.'' The person on the other line said. Damn that guy! How did he have the bravery to disturb me?

''It's freaking 01:00. Can't you postpone your call till tomorrow, I mean, in the morning? You ruined my beautiful dream.'' I yawned and smacked, still mad about those non-stop calls of his.