The White Tulip (Symbolism Of My Feelings)

Meeting A New Friend

Honey

I felt that my life was getting weirder and weirder after L's confession. Nothing really changed but I had a feeling that something bad will come up.

I admit that after we crossed the border between friendship and romance, I was genuinely happy because I was finally able to be together with him more often and maybe this would lead to a stronger love. I confess I dreamt a lot about him and his face never leaves my mind rest, in a good way. I never expected L to ask me on a date; it was too surreal to be true. What did he find in me, anyway? I wasn't the most interesting object in the universe, yet he detected something intriguing in me. I don't know what he sees in me but he hadn't found that something I possessed, I wouldn't be able to encounter him. I am content with what I have because, obviously, due to my characteristics he saw me as unique and I just can't stop giggling at this thought.

What I wished I have realized sooner was Suzy was also in love with L and when this concept popped up in my head, I just knew I couldn't tell her what had happened to me on that Saturday. However, I considered the fact that she would eventually acknowledge my secret as well. I just have to confess to her about this matter at the right time; then I would avoid her drama rants by a little bit. She wasn't a drama queen or someone who would make a big matter out of something small but if you catch her at an inconvenient moment, she will make lives of everybody surrounding her a rotten hell and she will make sure they don't get out of there.

Also, after all this explanation I should inform that from a while my instincts started to function in alarm and implied to me that something unpleasant would turn up soon. Women instincts are never wrong and I could not stop worrying about it. What was it that will affect my life terribly? I could not tell. I successfully endeavored to distract myself with something gratifying from this disagreeable weight in me. If I thought too much about it, the feeling would get stronger and stronger almost to the point I could not handle it anymore.

''Hey, Honey! Guess what?'' Sungjong opened my room's door. It was Sunday. Tomorrow's Monday... God, I so hate the weekends to end. Why the distance between Monday and Friday is so long but the distance between Friday and Monday is short?... Anyway, I was startled because I was building a tower of playing cards and was about to put the last one on the top of my ''masterpiece''. But all the cards fell. I bit my lower lip in frustration.

''OMG, I'm terribly sorry. I didn't mean to do it. I didn't know you were engaged with something.'' Sungjong put his hands glued together and shook them for mercy.

I went back to normal and sighed. Imagine his pity face. Aw, how was I supposed to handle that cuteness!

''It's not a big deal. I'm gonna do it next time; I'm tired now.'' I splashed myself on my bed. ''So, what were you saying?''

Sungjong's eyes immediately glittered with happiness and excitement.

''Yesterday, I was looking for a keyboard in the music shop...'' Oops! I forgot to mention to you, guys, that he can play the piano and keyboard. He plays the instruments so beautifully that I imagined him and Suzy being a duet, while I, on the other hand, suck at singing, dancing and playing instruments. I wish I was talented like them... ''... And I suddenly bumped into someone. I apologized and when I saw the person's face, it was...''my'' precious Kevin! It turned out that he helps his parents with work. He asked if I studied at the same school as he did... I didn't know that he would notice me!'' Catfish became really enthusiastic and ended up walking around the room. ''Then Kevin recommended one of the keyboards, which was white, and I began playing a creation of Mozart. The instrument was great. It wasn't very heavy and when I pressed the keys, it was like my fingers were touching feathers while the music was carried around the shop. He stated that I played the keyboard brilliantly and suggested me to do a duet with him. I agreed and he brought his guitar and we thought of a song that would suit us. As we were playing the instruments, I, somehow, forgot that we were living on Earth and found ourselves in a magical place. Or that's what I thought...'' He decided to sit on my chair. ''After that, I thanked him for hanging out with me all morning and afternoon. I didn't realize that I was staying that long until I took a peek at my watch. He asked me for my phone number. We exchanged our numbers, after that I took my keyboard with me and we bid goodbye. I hope he'll call me. Oh, Honey. I'm totally in love!''