Mi Salvador

Total Eclipse of the Heart

TW: CHARACTER DEATH, ANGST, not so dramatic but still very sad

Ascella's POV
Olly hasn't woken up in a few weeks. It was already December. I sat quietly in Olly's hospital room, reading. There was a knock and I turned to see Nash.
"You don't have to knock to see your son." I smiled. He chuckled and placed some flowers down before kissing my head.
"Thanks for being here and updating me."
"No problem..." I sighed, looking to Olly.
"He'll be okay, I promise."
"I know." I held his hand gently. Nash sighed and looked out the window. I then started to cry. Nash turned quickly and went to me, "Ascella, What is it? Does something hurt?"
I shook my head and looked down, "I'm so sorry, Nash, I'm so sorry."
"Ascella..."
"You've already lost so much, your wife, your eldest son, and now-..."
"Ascella, I am not going to lose Olly...and if I do, it will never be your fault."
"I shouldn't have started dating him."
"Ascella Amaro, look at me..." he cupped my face, and sighed, "You make my son happy...that's all I've ever wanted for him..."
I nodded.

I went out Christmas shopping. It was hard finding gifts and I was intending on buying the squad gifts too. My dad was hardest, but I knew he needed a new watch anyway. Then I found a nice bracelet for Amanda and another one for Liv. I got Something funnily stupid for Munch and Fin because they were like whack uncles to me. Cragen has me confused and I was having a hard time finding something, so I got him a mug. Ugh, I suck at this... I got some new shorts for Charlie because he uses his lacrosse ones a bit too much. Then for Ollie...I was gonna spoil the shit out of him. I made him a small scrapbook and ordered a necklace with my name. Oh god I'm cheesy. I was paying and saw the woman behind me eyeing me down.
"Um, hello?"
"Sorry, I-I think I've seen you somewhere..."
"I'm Nash Kingsley's son's girlfriend."
"Oh...my husband was the one who hit you..."
I lost my breath, and looked away, "Oh..."
"I'm sorry."
"I don't think anything can help right now. Just have hope my boyfriend is out of his coma before Christmas? That would give me some ease. Thank you." I took my things after paying.

I walked into the house, placing my—well, Olly's—car keys down. I couldn't keep asking my dad for a ride to the hospital and such, so I got permission to use one of Olly's cars from Nash. I was still extremely sore from the accident and even though my cast was off, my wrist was still frail. I looked to see my dad and Zara at the table, making something. Zara turned and gasped, "Close your eyes!"
I laughed, "What?"
"We're making your birthday gift! I don't want you to see!" She whines and I could hear the table being cleaned. I stood there with my hands over my eyes for a moment before someone pulling them away, "All done." Dad smirked, letting me go to the table. I sat down and looked around. Everything felt...lonely, kind of unsettling. I felt a tear stream down my face and I tried to hold it in. Dad caressed my cheek and looked at me, taking my hand, placing a kiss on it.
"Don't worry, Ascella...he's gonna be okay, I promise..."
I laughed and wiped away my tears before getting up, "Nash said the same thing..."
"And he's right. Ascella, dont tell me you're giving up...that's not my daughter."
"Your daughter was kidnapped and never came back!" I backed away from him, running my hand through my hair. Zara stopped and looked at me, but I turned away and went upstairs.

I sat in the car with Charlie, "What if he does-"
"Charlie, please don't say it. I'm already scared..."
Charlie took my hand, "If he does, don't blame yourself..."
"Back at you." I huffed, looking out the window, "I can't believe I yelled at my dad like that, last night..."
"You're stressed out Ascella.."
"And I did it in front of my sister, I'm so fucking stupid!"
Charlie grabbed my arms and made him look at me, "Ascella! Ascella! Look at me!" He cupped my face, "You're not a bad person for doing that! You...you've been bottling up these feelings ever since you were kidnapped...it's okay to be mad."
I nodded and sat back, suddenly, Charlie's phone started to ring. He picked it up.
"Nash—What? O-okay, I'm with her right now. We're coming." He started the car and we rushed to the hospital. I ran in, only to be held back by Nash.
"He relapsed and was seizing. You can't see him right now."
We waited for at least two hours. Nash was called in and Dad came with Zara and Amanda. I paced and frantically looked to the door. They opened and it was a doctor.
"Ms. Amaro..."
My heart clenched. He sighed and shook his head, "I'm sorry. He's gone."
I felt my knees go weak and let out a cry. Dad wrapped his arms around me as I sobbed loudly. Charlie was holding Zara, crying into her hair as Amanda comforted him.

He's gone.
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Heyo! I'm sorry for not updating in a long ass time and for giving you a short and sad ass chapter! Love you all! Mwah! 💋