After that night, I totally forget about anything else beside her. Now got her back in my life, at least that what's I thought for now. My life getting better, I don't ffeel sad all the time like few weeks ago.
"We need to talk" Sally said at the doorway to my recording room "Oh I'm sorry, I didn't know you're busy. We can talk about it later" She said and about to close the door.
"No no no, we can talk like right now, I can do it later." I said and lead her to living room
"I just want to say thank you for everything, and I'm sorry I left you that night" She said, right to the point. She never vhange, always said what inside her head and never play hard to get everytime she's angry. Usuallly, she will scream right in front of my face everytime she pissed off with her face getting red and I would laugh because of how funny and cute it is when she angry. She always is cute, but not when we got into an argument.
"And I see you have someone else new now. So I cannot stay here longer, right? What if she come and see us like this? She would be mad and I can't forgive myself if you guys fight because of me." She said again
"Someone new?" i asked her, i don't even have my eyes on anyone after she left
"I saw a white woman cardigan in your room and i thought that's hers" She said. Ah, Inez's cardigan still here, I always forgot to tell her about it. Well, I totally forgot about her as soon as Sally came into my mind. Who am I kidding?
"No, I don't have someone new. She's just a fan and friend of mine, nothing special." I said, hope she would understand and believe me because I'm telling the fucking truth.
"Oh sorry, I didn't know it" She said, laugh a little bit. "How do you guys met?" She asked
"At the bar, then she said she's one of my fan. Oh, and she's a youtuber as well, so we became friend since we do the YouTube thing" I said, it's weird to talk about Inez in front of Sally. Then my mind wonder, where on earth Inez is right now.
"Ah, I see" She said, nodded her head. "Do you have feeling about her?" She asked again. Is it the thing she wanted to talk?
"No, why? I said nothing special about her. She's just a friend and maybe a partner for work since we've made a video together" I said, a little too fast and probably she would think it was a lie.
"I'm just curious" She said, play with her long hair. Oh how I missed polay with her hair everynight. "What's her name?" She asked once again about Inez.
"Inez, Inez putri." I told her and pronounce it as perfect as I could. She nod her head once again.
"Can we not talk about her?" I asked, more like begging
"Yes, I'm sorry" She said
"You don't usualy said sorry that much, you know?" I chuckle a bit
"Yeah, I used to aplogized for eveything that I do when I'm with my ex back then. It kinda a habit now." She said, smile at me. I missed that smile too.
"it's been a long time since i see that smile" I said, she smile once again for me. That's it, I gave up fight my feeling back. I close the gap between us, kiss her soft lips that I missed the most, hug her small body that I'm dying to do since I met her again. She kissed me back, I can feel her smile through the kiss. Is it mean she still have feeling for me even a little bit? I hope so.
She--sadly--pulled away from the kiss "i miss you" She said, as soon as I open my eyes to see her face just an inch away from me. I looked at her deadly in the eyes "You know I miss you more than I should, right?" She chuckled "i hope you still have that feeling for me" I said, almost whisper. "That's why we need to talk" She said, make the gap bigger enough for us to breath.
"I thought you just want to talk about the woman cardigan" I said my thoughts out loud
"Well, that's one. And now, since you're not with anyone else, we can talk about the next thing" She said, fix her position and make me somehow intimidate.
"And what is it?" I asked
"About us?" She said, more like asked back to me
"Yes?" I'm still confused.
"I mean, you know I will said yes if you want me back. But, I don't think that's a good idea" She said
"Why not?"
"See, I just dumped you few months ago, I've made you really sad for a long time. I can't, I just can't take the risk of hurt you again." I can hear her voice cracked.
"You won't"
"How can you know? What if I always asked the same thing over and over again? What if I get mad easily just like I used to? What if I can't make you happy? So many what if in my head about our relationship. You know, everyone said get back to your ex is like read the same book over again or watch the movie you already watched, you already know the story and the ending. What if i left you again? You really think that you can handle that?"
That makes me think for once about start over our relationship, but I don't have to think twice about it, I easily can handle anything if I want. I'm a boss, right?
"What if I want to watch the same movie or read the same novel to make a sequel out of it?" I asked her back. It's not impossible to start over. right?
"I don't know" She said
"I want you back, I really want you back. You know, you bring the best version of me. Besides, we don't know what we will have in front of us, right? We'l never know, if we never try" I said to make her sure that I really really want her back in my life.
"Look, it feels like I lost my other half when you're gone. I can't sleep right, I can't play game right, I can't even think right when I'm without you. You know I am only me when I'm without you. Please come back, I really need you in my life." I beg her, if she want to I would get on my knees to beg her.
"I really want to" She said
"Then please try again with me" I said, almost in tears. I can't imagine my life without her once again.
"I'd love to. But--" I cut her off by kiss her lips, I don't care anymore about anything. I just want her back, i just want to be happy again after those dark days I've had. I have no one to talk, I have no one to laugh with, I have no one to save me, I can't even help myself. I need her so bad, I really really need her.
"Please" I said once again when we pulled away from the kiss
"Sean, you know I can't say no" She said. I smile, the first ever big bright smile since she left.
"Anyway, I saw that Inez text you few minutes ago before we talk. Maybe, she had something important to tell you since it's 1 in the morning" She said "I'll be in back garden if you need me" She said again.
I go to my room to check my phone. Yeah, she text me an hour ago.
Inez : "Hey, I'm on my way to Ireland. Hope you're okay."
Yeah, she's in in her hometown to her friend's funeral.
Sean : "Be safe, I'm okay and I'm happy now!"
I really am happy now. You know, I think I believe 'love will find its way' kinda thing now. I almost thought I can fall for Inez, I almost think I can replace Sally with Inez. That's crazy and stupid at the same time just to think again about it right now. I now realised I can't replace Sally with anyone else in this world. She's too beautiful, too perfect to be replaced.
My phone lit up once again, she replied my text.
Inez : "I'm glad you're happy now"
I smile to my phone, I shouldn't text her too much. She's sad and probably need her time alone, she said that on one of her video. She said, when she's sad, she doesn't want anyone to bother her even it's her mother. Well, I want to be a good friend that understand her.
I go back to my recording room, now I have that spirit back to work. I really am a lucky man.
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So Long, Happ-inez-ss (Jacksepticeye Fanfiction)
Fanfiction"Hey, let's continue our conversation in my apartment" Sean said to Inez "Okay then" She said "I have to go right now" She said about an hour later, leaving Sean hanging, confused, and alone.
