So Long, Happ-inez-ss (Jacksepticeye Fanfiction)

Chapter 23 : Sean - Goodbye, Inez

I've got a notification on twitter. Inez tweeted something about new video and new journey, probably she finally talked about go to collage thing. I clicked at the link and watch her video, once again hope it will fill the empty hole in my heart. Her smile, her face, her laugh, that's literally what I miss the most from her. Oh God, please give me another chance to hug that girl even it's for the last time. The memory of what happened in my house several months ago came into my mind again

"You're only love me when you're drunk" "Am I your backed up plan?" "Maybe I'm just a fucking waste, filling up an empty space"

Those words really echoing in my brain for a very very long time, if I lose her this time it's literally my own fault and I really deserve it, I thought to myself. But no matter I want to accept the fact, I just can't. I won't. Not now, not today.

"And I will go back to my hometown" She said. I swear I would've been died like right now, I listen to it really really carefully didn't want missheard any of her words. Medical school, mom, hometown, tomorrow, and Alex. That's all the things she talked about, it seems clear to my ears, but not in my mind and my heart. In the end of the video, there's Alex and her voice behind the camera, and of course sounds so happy. Oh my heart, it hurts.

I text Inez, she probably wouldn't reply. But I kinda used to it anyway, at least she read whatever I sent to her. At least she knows my feeling towards her.

Sean : "I'm so mad because you're not telling me about going back"

It's true, I'm mad and sad at the same time

Ding.

Inez : "I'm sorry, I thought you don't really care anyway. But now you know, right?"

Oh, it hurts so bad.

Sean : "Where are you now?"

Inez : "I'm on my way to the airport"

I should run to her

Inez : "Don't you dare run to the airport and try to stop me like in romance movie. Please, don't"

I don't care.

Sean : "I don't care about your opinion, but I'm literally on my way now"

I closed the door behind me. Please let this be a good goodbye. I don't want things ended up like this.

Inez : "No, Sean. Go to bed, go to sleep, it's not safe out there if you're drunk"

Even fall off a clift wouldn't be this hurt, I thought to myself.

Sean : "What time is your flight?"

I run to my car and drive, just drive as fast as I could

Inez : "5 o'clock"

It's 3.47 AM. I still have hope for this. Oh please let this be real. Even I can't be there in time, please let the flight be delayed.

Sean : "I'm on my way. Please, I just want to say goodbye"

I don't want to say goodbye, I want to stop you.

Inez : "We already said goodbye back then. You don't need to, Sean. Go back home, this world is cold and not safe for you"

I don't care, I broke the law by  using my phone while driving in a crazy ways, but I literally don't care. I should be there.

Inez : "Please go back"

Inez : "Sean, please. I'm with someone else now, can't you see it?"

I see it very clearly and I can't let it.

Inez : "Sean?"

No, I'm not gonna reply until I'm arrived.

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I jumped out my car and run, run as fast as I can of course typing in my phone as well

Sean : "Where are you?"

Inez : "I see you, and I'm gonna tell you where the hell I am. Go back to your house, Sean for God's sake."

I looked around me, just like a lost child looking for his mom in supermarket. Oh God, please I need to see her, I don't know if she will come back to Ireland again so I need to see her so bad. Please.

Inez : "Go away, Sean"

No way. I've come this far to see you, and I'm not gonna go back until I meet you.

Inez : "I hate you"

As soon as I read that, she was standing right in front of me. A smile appear on my face, she's alone by herself. "I thought you don't want to see me again" I said to her, still with a smile on my face but with teary eyes. I really want to stopped her now. She look around just like looking for someone and afraid that she would be caught for some reason. She sigh, wipe away the tears from her face.

"I don't want to. I really don't want to running back to you again." She said, wipe another tears. "I want to hurt you" She said, unexpectedly "Do it" I said, put both of my hands on her shoulder, make her looked up to me. "I'm used to be hurt by now" I said just causing another tears come from her beautiful brown eyes. "You make me sounds like a bad person, when in this case you're the heartbreaker one" She said and let a little bitter laugh. "Hurt me in physical way if you want to" I offer her, wipe away my own tears.

"I" She said, and slap me really hard on my right cheek.

"Hate" Another slap

"You" More slap

"So" Even more slap

"Much" A very hurt slap

"Was that make you better?" I said, she was going to touch my cheek but I flinch because I'm afraid she will slap me again, but she touch it instead.

"No" She said. "My heart still hurts"

I nodded my head "Hurt me again if you want" I said, expect another slap or punch from her.

"Goodbye, Sean." She said, hug me.

I won't let go.

I don't want to let go.

Please don't go.

But sadly, she pulled away and walked away to someone. Of course the one and only Alex Gaskarth. With my head down, I walked back to my car, drive back to my place in silence. Fuck it, I never been this hurt before, not even when Sally left me.

Sean : "Goodbye, Inez. I wish you a lifetime happiness"

No, I'm not gonna cry in the morning and passed out in the sadness this time, no.

I should be happy for her.

Just be happy for her.

Fuck it.