"Well yeaa, nice to meet you too. And nice to meet you again, Sean. Yes, it's been a long time, but I have to go now. See you!" I said right after look at Sean once again. My heart hurts, it feels like a thousand knifes stab my chest, I'm bleeding until I can't even breath. I try to hold it, but I can't, my eyes can't even wait until I arrived home to produce waterfall. A single tear fell down to my cheek, another one, another one.
I close my front door just to fell down to the ground and cry as loud as I can, I don't even care if Sam will able to hear me or maybe scared to death. Just like I thought, she come to me and pull me into a hug, not even said a word, she let me cry in her arms. After a solid 5 minutes, I finally can get myself back and pull away from her hug.
"Thank you, I really need that" I said, wipe away the tears.
"yeah, you're welcome. You hungry?" She asked. It's 4 PM, I not that hungry and it's way too early to have dinner. "Or maybe you want to watch a movie and eat ice cream?" She asked again, this time I nod my head.
"Go change your cloth, and pick up a movie you want to watch" She said again. I get up and pick up my bag, go to my room and change into something more comfortable. I really am sad. Now I understand how bad a heartbreak can be. I mean, this is my first heartbreak ever after 19 years in this world and I really don't want to feel this way twice. After remove my make up, I go to the living room and pick up a movie. It's Ghostbuster, because why not.
After a movie done, Sam pick up another movie and we decided to have movie marathon to make me feel better and keep my mind away. We go from Ghostbuster to Captain America : The First Avenger, then I set Black Panther to the next movie we should re-watch, because who am I kidding, he's cool.
After 3 Marvel's movie away, it's already midnight and we realised haven't even eat dinner yet. Sam decided to order fast food and I clean the mess we've made while movie marathon-ing. We eat the food as soon as it arrived, the movies really keep my mind away from what's going on earlier, but after it I remember anything very clear. I don't really know that I cry while I took the last bite of chicken nuggets that I've ordered.
"Maybe you want to talk about it?" Sam said "You know, I'm not that good to give advice, but I can try" She said again, cleas her hand with a tissue.
"Well, it's Jack" I said, wipe away the tear. "I met him when I'm on my way here. He's happy now, just like he said when the last time he texted me" I said, try so hard to not cry again. I've enough cry today. "Well, I thought he's happy because he finally move on and forget about his ex, and me, being stupid and thought that I'm the reason he's finally happy again after a while in the darkness. You know what I mean?" I said, took a deep breath "I think I'm the one who's there when he need company, when he feels lonely or need someone to distreact his mind from her. I thought, maybe, just maybe he can fall for me. But that's what I've got from thinking. A freaking wrong thoughts." I said more like angry to myself than sad.
"So, you really see Jack as a man now?" She asked me
"Of course I am! I always look him as a man after the first time I have a really long talk with him. His eyes, his laugh, his smile, his hair. Just as good as it seen from YouTube. I thought I love him as an idol, like I thought before we have a proper talk. That time when I told you want to go home alone, that's literally the first time I met him, and that time he was drunk and need a one ngiht stand. And I don't have to think twice to say yes, fuck it, I don't even try to think" I said, took another deep breath.
"You really want to give your virginity to him that time? That's insane. Then, what happened?" She asked, listen every single word I said while I mentally slap myself. I don't even think about that.
"Yeah, kinda." I said "But nothing happened. He's too drunk to have a one night stand. He called me with his ex's name, then I said he needs to sleep because he's too drunk to even have a one night stand." I said, Sam sigh in relief. "Then he called me again, we talk and laugh. We've made video together, but until now he doesn't even upload that video while mine have so many comments and likes from his fans." That video really went crazy because of Sean there or maybe I should called him Jack, just like a fan.
"Then?" Sam said, really want to know where this is going
"Then I've met her this afternoon, and he's with his ex. Maybe they're finally get back together. Am I really that stupid to think that I have a chance with him?" I asked
"I don't think so. I mean, he's heartbreaking and have no one. Then you come around, just like story in a novel. The difference is, the ex never come back." She said
I nod my head, this is not a novel, this is a real life story.
"What should I do?" I asked even I know what I really should do. Forget him.
"Start a new life, you're running out of time here. Use your time better than crying over him. Well, you really want to get rid of that boring black hair, right?" She asked while she had the same boring black hair that she always proud with.
"Yeah, maybe I'll try purple."
"Why? I thought you're going for blue just like Alex Gaskarth did long time ago"
"No, I really want to try knight bright purple, do you think it'll suit me?" I asked and touch my long black hair
"It will be nice. you know what they said about a girl who change her hair?"
"Yes, a girl who change her hair literally will start a new life" I said
We clean up the dining room and went to our room after said goodnight to eachother. I sit on my bed and sigh, maybe i should't feel this sad, I mean I just know him for almost a month? This love couldn't be a permanent feeling. I pulled out my phone from my bag, a name pop up
Sean : "Hey, how are you?"
Fuck it.
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So Long, Happ-inez-ss (Jacksepticeye Fanfiction)
Fanfiction"Hey, let's continue our conversation in my apartment" Sean said to Inez "Okay then" She said "I have to go right now" She said about an hour later, leaving Sean hanging, confused, and alone.
