BL One Shots & Imagines

The Soldier (Of My Heart)

"The Soldier (Of My Heart)"
-Waii × Apo
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I decided to keep a diary of my last year alive, but I never thought I'd find the one and fall in love during this same year.

I never thought I'd be this much of a coward either... Could this be seen as running away from my troubles or just escape my destiny. I don't know, probably neither one.

I decided to take the first step and talked to the principal about going to the US for the next year, knowing I'd never make it back alive. And I explained to him why I wanted to leave.

I have a hole in one of the chambers of my heart and to be honest when I was born my parents were told they were lucky if I was still alive by the time I was 12. Now I'm 22 and we already know I'm going to die by the end of the year. Why? Because my heart is really weak and I'm too far down on the donor list to get a new one before it's too late.

I silently packed my stuff and said my goodbyes to the guys, I didn't want to tell Waii I was leaving so I left a letter that would let him know after I was long gone.

5 Months later

It's been about 5 months since I left him, I'm miserable and just wish I could spend more time with him, but I can't. I don't want him to feel bad about me dying and I don't want him to pity me. Besides he has a girlfriend and he should be with her not me.

I'm starting to feel light in a way, as if all the pain had started to fade away. I look up at my mother and father, and I ask them if they can bring my diary back to Waii. I want to explain to him and let him know that he's not the reason for all of this.

Waii PoV

I was sitting in my room, thinking about Apo. How I missed him and wanted him to come back soon. When I got a knock on the door, I went over to open it and saw a pair stand in front of me, I realized they had to be Apos parents as to how much they resembles each other.

I wai them and take a step back to let them in. We sit down and talk for a while and right before they were going to leave his mom turn to me and hand me a black book. She tell me that Apo wanted me to have it.

After they leave I sit down on my bed, and I remember all the things we did together. He's dead... I lost him...

I opened the book, and I realize, with tears falling from my eyes. That it was in fact a diary or journal of some sort.
I start reading the neatly written words.

June 2nd. 2017

I transferred to a new university today. And there I met someone. I hope I can get to know him better, because I think I'm already starting to fall.
It's just too bad I'm about to die. Why did I have to get this unfair illness.
Signed Apo.

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July 5th 2017

Too much have happened this past time after I came to the university. I've fallen in love, gotten my heart broken and now I'm leaving it all behind. I know I'm getting weaker by the day and I've talked to the principal about taking a year away. Even though we both know that I will never be able to make it back. Maybe it's better this way. Maybe we both can be happy after all.
Signed Apo

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October 15th

It's his birthday today, I hope he is doing well. I just wish I could be there with him. I miss you Waii. I'm sorry for leaving you like this. But I hope some day you will be able to understand why I did this. I'm sorry...

As I was reading this I felt a lump in my chest. I miss you too... Promise me we will meet again some day... I saw tear stains on the paper and understood that Apo also had been crying while writing this.

November 26th 2017

I think today is the day. They came this morning and told me they had found a heart for me, if my body does not reject it I'll be able to see him again. If it doesn't get rejected I'll be able to be with him...

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November 28th 2017

I feel so weak and I think there was a complication or it's getting rejected. I'm sorry Waii... And I always wanted to tell you that I love you...
Signed Apo

That was the last entry, 3 days ago... He died 3 days ago and this was how he said goodbye...

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Okay so that's it please don't kill me for this but there's still another part and I can promise you that you will get a surprise and more of a happy ending.