BL One Shots & Imagines

Thank You for Loving Me

I still remember when I realized it myself, it took me a while to actually admit to it, and I know that I didn't necessarily react to it in the best way possible, but I also know that right now, I'm very happy with the way it ended.

I would be here, with him if it didn't. However, thinking back to it I wish I could change it. I wish I wasn't so stupid and stubborn, I wish I could have been a better person for him... 

I wish I hadn't been so stupid and pushed him away when he tried to tell me how he felt...

I guess this all started a lot earlier for him however, I don't know when he fell in love with me or why for that matter. He could have had anyone, and yet he chose me. Thank you Sarawat...

Thank you for loving me even when I didn't deserve it...

"Tine... Tine... Tine... Are you okay?" Sarawat is waving his hand in front of my face.

"Hey... Nuisance... Would you mind to focus..." he continued with once he saw that I was back to my own senses.

I shake my head, it might just have been me over thinking it again, but I know I want to do this for him.

I pick up the guitar again and strum the first chord of the song I wanted to surprise him with, I want to show him that I'm doing all I can to be a good guitarist and show him how I feel about, although I'm pretty sure he already knows.

"Sarawat... Why did you fall in love with me?" I suddenly ask without thinking...

"I don't know... Now focus on what I was teaching you..."

"I don't know... I just did..."

"I have something to show you by the way..."

Again I strum the first chord of the song but this time I continue...

I had asked P"Dim to help me with the chords and he had surprisingly said yes...

The song I've chosen to sing for Sarawat is a song called Ordinary Person (for reference it's the same song Yo sang in 2moons for the star and moon thing)

I don't know why I chose this song in particular but I know it shows the emotions I want sarawat to understand I feel for him...

So as I play the song for him I take a glance at him, and to my surprise he had moved closer to me, he was sitting on the edge of my bed with his arms resting on his knees leaning towards me as if he was drawn to the soft sound of the guitar.

And as my voice dies down he looks up into my eyes and mutter

"why did you stop?"

"because of this..."

I lean forward and place my lips gently close to his, I can feel a slight smile on his lips as I pull away again my eyes dart away from his and I drop my head down, while I'm fidgeting with the guitar.

Sarawat takes the guitar out of my hands and place it on the stand by the wall, then he pulls me out of the chair and toward him. I can feel my heart beat raising and I instantly know that he can hear it too.

How do I know that he also hears it? Because he looks at me with a slight smirk, and before I get a chance to understand what is happening I'm leaning against my desk with his face dangerously close to mine, the only thing that differ from the time in my dream is first of all this is real, and honestly I'm enjoying every single second of it.

I don't want to hold back anymore and I pull Sarawat closer until there's no space left. His lips are soft and sweet pressed against mine, and I never want this to end. I think I'm addicted to the feeling of him, the feeling of us. Although my eyes are closed I know his are open looking at me with love all the love in the world and that's everything I ever could ask for.

As I open my eyes and look right in his I fall even deeper in love with him. I want to tell him that as well, but what if he doesn't feel that way about me, I mean we've only been dating for 2 months is it too early... What do I do?

Sarawat pulls away just a few seconds later, places his hand towards my cheek and say

"Tine...I need to say something"

"what's going on?"

"There's nothing wrong, I just wanted to sat that I'm never ever letting you go... You're too important to me."

"Sarawat... I love you."

"what did you... Wait did you just say that you love me?... Tine I love you too."

"Can we just stay here and in bed all day, I don't want to go anywhere..."

"Sure... We can order some pizza and stay in..."

×××

A few days pass by and the weekend arrives, I'm not feeling too well so I don't get up when I wake up. Instead I look over at my nightstand and reach for my phone.

As I unlock it I see a message from Sarawat, it was sent about five minutes ago and it said 'Hey I'm outside your dorm are you awake?' I smile and get up anyway.

I go to open the door and open it to see Sarawat standing there with a huge smile that makes my heart feel like it's going high wire, his guitar case and a bag of food. I smile back and reach my hand out to him and take him further into the room. I close the door and walk back together with him.

"good morning sleepy head" he says as he places the stuff down and turn to me. I laugh and walk over to place a peck on his cheek. I just want to cuddle and get better, but we also have a performance to prepare for so I guess we're also going to work on.

And that's exactly what we do. For the most part...