Hayden & Dean (The Sequel) - A Tethered Love

Chapter 42: Love is the most dangerous emotion

When I get out of the shower, Dean is waiting in our bedroom. I try my best to ignore him as I pull some clothes out of a drawer but his eyes just stay on me, willing for me to talk to him. Finally, before I can even get dressed I've had enough and I just spit out "what do you want, Dean?!"

"I want you to talk to me, I haven't seen you in 3 months." He replies, his voice low and calm.

I quip "yeah, and whose fault do you think that is, huh?" His eyes go to the ground for only a moment before he brings them back up to me "Dean, we missed our sons first birthday. Did you know that? It was 18 days ago. Paul, he's one and I have absolutely no idea where he is or who he's with." I feel the tears start to sting my eyes but I refuse to cry in front of Dean right now. Instead, I change gears and let out what is angering me the most "and putting that a side, I just spent a week and a half with the women you would rather be with and"

He interrupts me there "no, that is not true!" His voice is raised at me "I do not want to be with Amara. I do not love her. I love you."

I shake my head, not believing a word he is saying "Dean, I know about everything. Lucifer showed me the conversation you two shared back when you thought he was Cas. I heard you guys talking, I know you kissed. But what's killing me the most, even if I put all that a side, you didn't care to once come try and see Paul and I when I said we were in New York."

He argues "but you weren't even in New York those weeks!"

I reply loudly "so, what!? You thought we were, and maybe if you just put your family first for one fuckin' day you would have went and realized, oh wait, Hayden isn't here. This is weird."

Dean shakes his head "I'm sorry. Alright? I'm terrible at this family shit but how was I suppose to know you wanted me there, you told me not to come." He throws his arms up.

"I was forced to, Dean!" I remind him "Lucifer had me the entire time. I had to do everything he said and had to beg him to let me see Paul. And if I didn't, if I didn't get to see him then who knows where he or I would be right now."

He doesn't have words to reply to me and I just take his silence as a cue for me to leave so I can get dressed. When I'm done dressing and brushing out my hair, I go back to the room. Dean isn't there anymore but my emotions are still reeling and I go off to go and find him. Instead of finding him though, I find a shorter man with a scruffy beard and a gentle smile "who are you?" I snicker as he drinks a beer.

"I'm Chuck." He says with a smile "you must be Hayden, it's great to meet you." He stands and moves to shake my hand.

I don't accept it though, and instead I keep my arms folded. I know anyone who's here right now is involved in all this Amara mess and I could care less to help with that right now. All I want to do is see my son. "Yeah well, when you see Dean tell him to come find me."

I go to turn around and walk away but what he says back to me catches me off guard "would you like to see your son?"

I stop, turn my head over my shoulder and shoot daggers at him. I question "you know where my son is?"

He nods once "I know where everyone is, I can bring him here. If you'd like."

My eyes widen at his words, trying to think about what he just said. I turn slowly back to him and when I'm facing him fully again, I repeat "you know everyone? What do you mean?"

My words come out slow, but he must know what I'm getting at because he answers with a nod to confirm my suspicion "I'm God."

My mouth hangs open. God. Here. In front of me. A million things try to go through my mind at once but the one thing he said about bringing my son here is still the thing that's loudest in my brain. I decide to say "you can bring Paul here?"

"If you'd like, sure. You've been through a lot lately, I can only imagine you'd like to see him." He says to me. I scoff in his direction. Yeah I've been through a lot, and where the hell has he been through it. Not helping me, not helping Dean or any of us. "Would you like me to get him?"

His voice brings me out of my thoughts and I go to accept but then change my mind "actually, can you bring me to him? I don't want him here, around what's going on." I hope he thinks I am referring to Lucifer. Which I am, but also to what's going on between Dean and I.

God, or Chuck or whatever he goes by just smirks and replies "I understand. I can get you to him. When you're ready to come back, just shoot up a prayer." His smirk turns into a smile as he reaches me and before I could open my mouth he touches my shoulder and I am instantly in another location.

I look around at the unfamiliar air around me. I'm in the woods somewhere, there's melting snow at my feet and a truck in the driveway in front of me. I start to follow the driveway up and I see a cabin. I run up to the door and start to bang on it quickly. It takes a moment but I am partially relieved to see Charles standing in front of me "Charles? Where's Paul?"

"He's sleeping" he replies, he then grabs me by my shoulder and pulls me tightly into his chest "thank God you're okay! Where have you been?" He rubs his hand up and down my back and I just lose it, everything I wouldn't let out in front of Dean starts to pour out to Charles.