THE STORY BEHIND US: PART 1 (A JenBin Fanfiction)

CHAPTER 39

(BI's almost done in reading all the letters. It was now 6:35pm and he is still at the rooftop. He decided to finish it all. He is now reading Jennie's very last letter.)

To Kim Hanbin,

I don't know how to start this. I'm so out of my mind right now. I have so many questions for you but I can't seem to know what to ask first. Why am I crying all day? First mom made me cry today, yeah she called me and it's been so long since I saw and talked to her. You know what I missed her a lot. And then, you made me lost my mind by what you've just said a while ago. I don't know what to do now. Why are you being like this? Did I do something wrong? To be honest I saw you at the pharmacy not so long ago. I've always wanted to ask you this, Kim Hanbin why are you doing this to me? What's wrong? Am I not enough? It really hurts a lot, I can't explain the pain when I just heard you talking and being caring and worried about her when you're not even giving me a bit of your time did you know that? You know I'm not the type of person to ask you to give me expensive things and what so ever, all I want is a little bit of your time. I understand that you are having a really hard time leading the boys, but why is it that you can't even say hi or smile to me when we passed by each other? Did you really not see me or did you just intentionally ignore me? I would've just let you out if it only happened once but babe, everytime, you're doing that everytime and it really hurts. Are you happy now? Well I can't help it but to just be strong and do all our promises alone this time right? Jinja why are you doing this to me?!! Kim Hanbin Hanbini my love babe what happen to you? I know that I was not there when you needed me the most, I know that I wasn't been able to comfort you when you're so down but believe me I'm so worried about you! I'm near to getting crazy everytime I can't be with you. You might not believe this but everytime I come here at the rooftop, I am hoping to see you even if it's just 1sec. I really don't know what to say right now to change your mind because I know you, once you made up your mind then you're gonna go all the way and makes sure to see the end of it. Is this really the end for us? I never once thought that this might happen, ani, it never once occurred in my mind that we will come at this point, saying our goodbyes for real, jinjaro, because I was very sure about you, about us that's why I did not prepare myself for this, I really don't know what to do now ottoke!!!

Since it was like this now, I'll let go, ani you already let go so I too will let go. Just go to her. Just go Kim Hanbin-ssi. I hope you're really happy about this. What can I do, it's your decision and I can't do anything to change your mind. I hope that you'll be happier when you're with her than when you're with me. Come to think of it, she can help you with your career so it'll be for the best that you decided to let go of me. I am just a trainee with an unsure future so I'm okay with it now. It'll be best for you anyway so I'll just accept it and go on with life. We might see each other often but I know that it won't be the same. I am really hoping that this might not affect our squad. Don't worry I'll talk to the girls and explain everything, it's my fault anyway so rest assured. I really need to end this letter now right? There's a big chance that you might not read this but its okay, I just want to say sorry for all of my lacking and everything that made you uncomfortable and thankyou for everything, for all of the memories! It was great having you as my first love. It was the best, and I'm glad that I once had you as my partner. I hope you will be successful someday. You are one step ahead to achieving your dreams because you are a great person. You know that I'll be rooting for you, you and the squad. I don't know what will happen to me in the future but I hope both of us will be happy soon. Lastly, I'll put the necklace in the box and just let it in there because it's too precious for me to have it. I really wish you a happy life, it's for real. It was nice meeting you Kim Hanbin-ssi!

(With that very meaningful letter, BI cried his heart out and just let it all out. He can't explain it but he was regretting everything he said when he decided to break up with Jennie.)
BI: Jjjeeen—jjjeen jeongmal mianhae!!!! I was wrong! I did not know that you're actually having a hard time getting my attention and time!!! I am really really sorry babe!! I am taking back everything I said Jennie-ya just please come back to me please. And I really am sorry that I wasn't been able to keep my promise to you, I'm sorry that I let go of you and couldn't protect you! I know you are having a hard time right now. I really am so sorry babe!!!

(He just keep on crying and crying until he's eyes are swollen. He is feeling the guilt, the pain, the karma and everything! Well that serves him well though and it was nothing compare to what is Jennie feeling right now. Hanbin-na you pabo-ya!!!)