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SO MY MOM ISN'T as fond about Jack and I kissing in the rain as I was.

After a while she and my dad came to the hospital and got really mad because "I should be in bed healing". So that's what I'm doing right now. Jack is sitting on the couch with a blanket around him because he was also cold.

The doctors also weren't very fond of the idea, they said that if I kept doing this I'll be dead in less than a month.

I kept thinking and thinking about it. I either always stay in the hospital and live for 2 or 3 months. Or I do everything that I want to do, I really live my last months and I will die in less than a month. Easy choice right?

'I just can't believe that?' my mom paced back and forth in my room. 'I thought you were more responsible than this. Kissing in the rain? What kind of thing is that?'

'a think that makes me happy' I whisper in myself

'what was that?' my mom finally stood still

'I mean sorry, I was stupid' I say and she rolled her eyes.

'no you're not. You're just still that stupid teenager that sneaks out of the house to go to parties' she keeps talking. I used to do that. But only because Alex basically forced me too and of course I didn't want to turn him down.

'honey sit down please' my dad tries

'no' my mom exclaimed and a little chuckle leaves my lips. My mom is just really funny when she's stressed and mad.

'we're talking about life and death here Ava, you're life and death' she pointed at me

'I'm aware thank you' I rolled my eyes.

'and you Jack, I thought you were more mature. I thought you loved her' my mom says to Jack

'I do love her' he whispers

'well clearly you do not because if you did you wouldn't let her go out in the rain' my mom snapped back

'woah mom' I exclaimed 'I took him outside. I've always wanted to kiss in the rain so yeah, I was spontaneous. What a crime'

'you do not get to be sarcastic young lady' my mom said in a strict tone

'I actually do mom, it's my life, my voice and my tone. So yeah I do get to be sarcastic on you now' I know it may not be the handiest thing to be sassy on my mom right now but I'm just pissed she's pissed about this.

'so we got the results back' Doctor Verses came in. They took blood immediately when I came back to see if anything changed.

'and?' my mom sat down next to my dad

'nothing changed' she said and my mom let out a relieved breath 'you're lucky Ava'

'I know' I mumbled

'but you can't do this again, your immune system is really weak and you easily get sickness and your cancer easily get's worse' she told me

'Fleur' I mumbled 'and my mom and dad' They all looked at me.

'I know that what I did was dumb but-' I let out a deep breath 'there is this stupid list that I made months ago, deep in the night when I felt really lonely. It has 8 things on them and if I think about what I really want, it's doing those things. And I know that I will probably die in about a month, or even shorter but I don't really care. I don't care if I die in a year, a month, a week or in a few hours, as long as I did those things I'm happy. so please let me do those things, even If I'm to weak' I told them 'even If I'm dying'

'what are the 8 things' my dad asked.

'the first was kiss in the rain so that's checked off already' I scoffed 'but then it goes: wear a wedding dress. Go to a drive in movie. Take a picture in a photobooth and keep it forever. Pull an all-nighter with people I love. Get a tattoo. Drive in a cabriolet with very loud music and just sing as hard as I can. And drive somewhere in the middle of the night and watch the stars'

Everyone in the room let out a breath.

'and I want to do all of these with Jack, Nikki and Brian' looked at Jack who was holding a weak smile.

'look I've thought about this. I know I can do all of these, I know I'm strong enough. So please just let me do this' I looked at my mom

'but we'll lose you sooner' she wined

'I know, and I know that's selfish but just really want to do these- it's my last wish mom' I mumbled and she stood up.

'is it okay if she comes home with us and just spends her last weeks at home, doing these things' she asked to Fleur

'yes' she sighed 'but there has to be a nurse who will be there to check on you and take care of you if anything weird happens' she told me and my mom.

'we'll do it' Missy and Ellie then step in the room.

'sorry, we where listening but' Missy starts

'Ava is special and if she wants to do this and she needs a nurse I'll do it' Ellie added

'me too' Missy added

'okay' Fleur turned to me 'like I said, you're very lucky'

'I realize that' I smile

'I really really do'