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10.

ONE WEEK, 3 CHEMO'S, a visit from both my grandparents further and nothing changed. I'm still tired a lot. I only pumped into my bed the other day so now my whole leg is basically blue, very fun.

'bitch' I hear someone say in my ear and I jump

'oh my god Nikki' I yell when I see her and I pull her in a hug

'surprise' she yells back

'shouldn't you be at school?' I ask

'haven't you heard' she shakes her head 'I'm sick'

I roll my eyes 'obviously you are'

'well I missed you so' she sat on my bed

'I missed you too, it's so weird to not go to school' I tell her

'I know right. It's weird that now I don't have to pick you up. Or that I have to drive instead of walk to you' she nods

'yeah' I smile and I look down

'anyway, about Herman, Emma and Lola' he grabbed my attention

'they still haven't visited' I say

'and in school they're all weird and shit. Like they don't want to be my friend anymore' I nod

'so you think they don't want to be our friends anymore?' I ask slowly

'but that would be weird right, I mean we have been friends since first grade' she shrugs

'Niki, people are weird. they can change their minds in a split second. Maybe they decided not to be our friends anymore because maybe I'll die'

'you're not going to die' she says sad

'I know but they don't know it's 80% chance I don't' I grab her hand

'maybe I should tell them' she looks up, her eyes are sad, she really hates losing someone. Whether that be her friends or her great-great-grandma, she just hates it.

'I think you should, and then see how she will react. Maybe you can invite them here, whatever makes you feel comfortable' I tell her and I put my arm around her

'I just don't want to lose them' she mumbles

'I don't want to either' I kiss her head

'but what if they do- what if they don't want to be my friends anymore. Than I have no one' she mumbles 'well at school'

'i will personally go to school and tell the first person I see to be friends with you' I state and she laughs

'no but seriously, we'll figure it out, we always do. Plus you can call or text me, always, otherwise I will just die of boredom here' she laughs again

'I'm sorry but you have me' Jack opens the door

'hey Jack' I smile 'Nikki this is jack- Jack this is Nikki my best friend'

They shake hands

'do you want me to leave?' Jack asks

'no' Nikki smirks 'I want to know who my best friend hangs out with'

'just sit down' I pull my legs up and Jack sits on the end of my bed.

'so what's your story?' Nikki asks me

'well I lived a happy life until I suddenly started to pass out every time I did any sport. So then my dad took me to the hospital and turns out I had cancer. That was a year ago and now nothing has changed. Luckily my leukemia is getting better' he tells Nikki

'okay, and what's your story' Nikki asked

'you got yourself an August Waters here' he said to me and I laughed

'what's going on' if I got a dollar for every time someone asked me that in the last week, gosh I would be rich.

'we both are obsessed with movies' I explained and she nodded

'soulmates I see' she smirks and I roll my eyes

'excuse my friend, she thinks every guy I hang out with is going to marry me or something' I say and he laughs

'what, almost every guy you hang out with. You eventually date' Nikki defends himself

'not every guy' I snapped back

'only Herman and he's as more gay than Ru Paul' she rolled her eyes

'that's a lot' Jack stated and I nodded

'anyway, why did you come here?' I asked Jack

'just bored' he shrugged and I felt Nikki pushing me a little

'what' I asked her and she nodded her head in Jack's direction.

He was staring at me.

'jack' I yelled as I clapped my hands

'sorry' he then blushed 'I'm just tired'

'sure you are' Nikki whispered and now I pushed her a little bit

'if you are so tired, why don't you go to bed' I suggest

'that's a very smooth way to say, fuck off' he nodded slowly

'no it isn't, you know that' I roll my eyes

'I know, I'm going to my room' he stood up from my bed

'see you' I waved at him

'see you' he winked at me and closed the door behind him

'he's totally into you' Nikki then exclaimed

'he is not' I snapped back

'first of all, he stared at you and believe me that was not a I -am-tired stare, then he blushes when you caught him and he winks when he leaves' she counts on her fingers 'he is into you'

'he is not, I only know him for a week' I say

'and how long did it take you to "fall in love" with Alex' she said air quoting "fall in love"

'that wasn't love. I never loved him, I was just blinded by the fact that he's cute, sporty and French' I raise my eyebrow

'finally she admits it' she throws her hands in the air

'finally' I imitate her and she sticks her tongue out

'anyway, he likes you, do you like him?' Nikki asks him

'I don't know I've only known him for a week. He's nice and we are friends' I try to stay neutral

'okay you like him' she smirks like an idiot

'were not in 5th grade anymore Nikki' I roll my eyes

'you so like him' she claps

'oh fuck off'