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22.

'SUNSHINE' JACK WHISPERS TO wake me up.

'yes babe' I whisper back

'happy anniversary' he holds up a rose and I smile.

'happy 3 months baby' I rub my eyes and then give him a kiss.

It's already February, nothing really changed though. Time is going slow in this hospital. The endless chemo's and MRI scans and checkups, I'm getting tired of it.

but luckily Jack is here everyday to cheer me up and give me a kiss when I have another chemo. I know he also has them and believe me, he's also tired of them. We're just there for each other you know, I give him pep talks when he's tired and he gives me pep talks when I'm tired. We're a team and I like that.

'move a little will you' he stands up. I do what he says and he lays in bed with me.

'it smells good' I say when I put my nose in the rose.

'I love you' he puts a kiss on my head

'I'm tired' I yawn. I've been getting more and more tired every day, I don't want to but it kids of feels like I'm getting worse. Missy says that everyone goes through this phase, it first has to get worse before it gets better so I'm holding onto that.

'you want me to go so you can sleep' he asks but I shake my head

'no please stay' I put my arms around him and my head on his chest

'go to sleep sunshine' he plants another kiss on my head an di close my eyes.

I can't sleep but even lying here with him makes me less tired.

My mom finally made peace with the fact that I have cancer. She now comes her almost every day, she always brings me flowers. She's amazing, she also loves Jack. they instantly clicked or something, it was weird but I don't mind. She hated Alex and the fact that we had something so the fact that she think's we're cute makes me happy.

My brother and Jack are also good friends now. One time I was sleeping and they where both in my room. I woke up to Jack telling Brian how beautiful I am and how lucky he was that he has me. Brian answered with that he's happy I'm his sister. Don't worry I also dies of cuteness.

My dad is just dad, nothing in him really changed. He comes here when he has a day off and he always tells me about the news and everything going on in the world and our town. Brian told me that he one time heard him cry when he thought he was alone. That honestly broke my heart but I do get him, I would also cry like a baby when I found out my daughter has cancer.

Overall everything is getting better except me. I'm just feeling more and more tired every day. But it's just a phase so we'll all be just fine.

Tomorrow Jack has an operation. The doctors will take a bit of bone marrow to see if he's healing. It's not a big operation but the doctors say that is it says he's healing he may even go home. of course I'm happy if he can but I'm also sad because he won't be here anymore.

He told me that if he does heal he'll come a lot. he graduated school early last year because he had a lot of free time and studying was a good thing to kill time. I told him that he should live his life because over all he's getting better ad it's finally certain he has a future.

'you're not sleeping are you?' Jack whispered

'no' I whisper back

'you're thinking' he mumbled and I nodded. 'what are you thinking about?'

'I don't know- life'

'life is one big, fat, gigantic, stinking mess. that's the beauty of it' he whispered

'if I stay'  I smiled and looked up to him

'yes' he smiled back. 'so, you're brother came by'

'is he still here?' these lasts months I really learned to love my brother. I mean I of course loved him but these months I started to appreciate very thing he's done. I was to blind to see that he's always been there for me, no matter what I did or how much I annoyed him, he was always there for me.

'no, he saw that you where asleep and went home. we talked for a bit though, he said that school sucked and that there was this guy named Alex who hung up posters that said you where an attention whore'

I scoffed 'Alex is my ex. He's the biggest asshole you will ever meet. He literally said that he couldn't live without me until he found I out I had cancer and suddenly he didn't want me anymore'

'hate him already' he stated an di laughed

'Brian said he got suspended' he kisses my head

'good, he deserves that' I look up to him

'of course he does, if he is mean to my girl he deserves nothing' he says and I smile

'you're cute' I close my eyes

'no you're the cute one'

'which one are you then?'

'the one with bad chocolate taste' he chuckled and I smiled

'you definitely are that one'

'hey Ava' I opened my eyes again

'what?'

'if it turns out I'm healing and I can go home' he starts

'I don't care' I mumble 'as long as you text me everyday and you visit me once in a while I'm happy'

'Ava, I was going to say that I'll visit you every day' I feel him stroking my back

'no Jack you need live, you need to see the world'

'you are my world' he states and I look up

'you can't not live because I'm still in the hospital. I need you to be happy and live, so you can show me when I get out of the hospital' I tell him

'Ava we'll discover it when we're both out. I honestly don't care about the world, I love you and you're all I care about'

I sighed 'Jack why are you so stubborn'

'because I love you and I want to be with you' he stated 'forever'

He planted a kiss on my head. I closed my eyes again and put my head back on his chest. I wasn't going to fight about this because I know I won't win. And even if I did he will still come here every day, he's just one of those persons who loves someone and will never let that love go.

And I love him for that.

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Dam dam daaaaaaam...

It's going down hill for Ava😐😟.
You guys have no idea how I want to end the story. I'm really excited to see how you'll react.

I LOVE YOU
XX T