Iconic Shivika

ᴀᴜᴛʜᴏʀ's ɴᴏᴛᴇ ~ 9

Due to certain events, Shivika entered an alternate universe, with no memory of the real world but with an unexplained attraction towards and a feeling of being associated with each other.

I have decided to keep Iconic Shivika still focused on the ones in the real universe and not sum up any major conclusions from this alternate journey till things progress majorly enough for me to make any deductions.

The future of this alternate universe is yet to be witnessed, but for me this is just a small part of the original brand, and not a new version of Shivika. The real were eternal and this is just a phase, a fraction, only an ALTERNATE reality.

But at times I may choose to make use of my ᴀᴜᴛʜᴏʀ's ɴᴏᴛᴇs to analyze a phase of this alternate journey, just like I have done in the real universe before too.

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The views presented in this post are just to analyze the background story and are in no way intended to support any wrong actions of any character. I have a habit of going in deeper for a broader perspective of the "why?" question behind any reality, but that analysis isn't supposed to be used to say whatever happened is okay.

Making an attempt to understand why things happen isn't an attempt to convince myself or anyone else that those things can be justified or can be supported.

Shivaay oh Shivaay, this time no redemption can live up-to the mark. You've done too much damage with too little knowledge. You didn't break her marriage, you didn't force her into a relationship, you went far enough to exploit her weakness all over again, but this time you played real dirty. You will realize how low you went, once you find out the truth. She's Annika, she will still forgive and not forget, just like she did in the real world. But this time you will have to plead for forgiveness and still wouldn't be able to forgive yourself. You can pour your heart out to Rudra again, break all you want, hug her tightest...but you won't be able to escape the guilt.

Shivaay oh Shivaay you went unforgivably low,
But I still want to question why though,
Maybe I can make attempt to understand,
But in a guilty position you shall still stand.

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It's tough to trust.
It's tough to trust all over again.
Your parents are the most important figures in your life. For a child they're the beginning and the end of his/her entire world.
There is no one a baby can love more than a mother, for it's the one figure that is always there for you. Arms full of love, comforting you, nourishing you...you grow up to be taught heaven lies beneath her feet, but as a kid she is no less than a heavenly being for you anyways.
Your Dad symbolizes the balance between lessons and love. He knows when to hold your hand and when to let you trace your own steps. He chooses to set you free when the mother thinks you are too young to handle things on your own, yet he stays close by, just to make sure you're never in trouble.

At an age as tender as three when you barely can make sense of your own little world, concepts from the outside world seem completely alien.
But imagine never being told what happened and why, and just facing the consequences of something you weren't even remotely linked to.

Imagine the first time someone told you your dad preferred someone else over your mom.
You probably rather definitely weren't even able to understand what that even meant, let alone understanding why would he do so.
Maybe the first time you saw your mother flow a tear for such a thing you would have held her hand and asked her to calm down, because you think it'll all be alright, Dad still loves you all.
You wouldn't even understand what was bothering her, sharing her husband with another person for you was a concept like sharing a friend with another person.
Love, lust, life...all didn't have the same meaning for you, because you were still just a kid.
But imagine you never got the chance to understand anything, to even be informed of anything either.