canny believe i've said nothing about this? like thats dumb my crush is all i legit talk about on here x
but fr: i told him i liked him a few days after our last exam, it was on the monday after our graphics exam and i told him and he told me he liked me back and i was like !!!! and he was like !!!ye! and we talked for a bit and that was that. a week later was prom, and he turned up with his ex (booooooooooooo) and he kept looking at me all night like he wanted to come up to me but he didn't. theres actually a photo taken and was posted on the school twitter and hes in the corner and it was at the beginning of prom and there wasnt many people there and hes looking directly where i was sitting so xxxxxx. anyway. i messaged him when i got back saying sorry for not going up to him and talking but he didnt either and that if he isnt interested then he should stop leading me on. he didnt reply lol
anyway he ignored me for a full on month and that month was the lowest in my life lol my cat died n i was bored and really not in a great place mentally because summer always does this to me which is why i hate summer. anyway flashforward to a few days ago to him MESSAGING ME and appologizing and explaining his situation. obviously i was like wyd but he sounded just like me n that he wasnt in a great place mentally n he felt shit like yo me too x but i know he doesnt want a relationship so we've just been talking and its been so nice and i just thought i would update you all that im a stupid ass bitch for talking to him but i'm sensitive and this stuff never happens to me and so i dont know how to act but here i am, doing slightly better, still very much in despute w myself because my confidence n self esteem has dropped to the BOTTOM but yeah xxx thanks for coming to my ted talk
