this is going to make me sound 12 and also will sound weird but it was so nice
i had a dream the other night that i kissed my crush and he held me but it was like our first kiss (it was a weird dream it was like sci-fi and there was this shop thing i don't even remember anything except that and the kiss) but it was our first kiss and i was so happy in my dream and then i woke up and i felt sick because it wasn't real and i just:( he was kinda sad at school the next day and i felt so shit i want him to be happy and i want to know how he's feeling and how he's doing and i want to be close with him and kiss him and i want to be in love with someone who feels the same back but he DOESN'T and its hurting me that i can't deal with feeling like this
