cute so apparently part of me thinks its a good idea to suddenly start liking my friend?? ive suddenly got this part of me which just wants to BE IN LOVE IWTH HIM AND I KNOW IM NOT AND WONT BUT I WANT TO BE SO BADLY BECAUSE I DO ADORE HIM AND I THINK I PROBABLY DO LIKE HIM BUT IM AFRAID OF THIS SO SMUCH I M AFRAID OF BEING OPEN AND IM AFRAID OF COMMITMENT this isnt FUN for me or ANYONE after my ugly messy summer with alfie i never want to have ym heart hurt ever AGAIN but i WANT TO FUCKING KISSS HIM I DONT EVEN KNOW HOW TO EXPLAIN IT I DONT FEEL THIS NORMALLY BUT HEOASFSDJBSDJVBAJSK;C I CANT EXPAIN IT FUC\CK MAN
