AT MY BEST

Twenty-Four

I made it to the house as fast as I could ecstatic that Jordan wanted to talk to me. My relationship with Jordan meant more to me than life itself and I'd be dammed if I just let his fine, intelligent ass go without trying to reconcile our relationship.

"Jordan!? Hello I'm here" I began to search for him immediately once I opened the door to our home.

"I'm up here!!" He called out from our room.

I tossed my jeep keys on the table in the fourier and headed up the stairs. He had the tv blairing as always. Of course he was watching reruns of Maury which was his guilty pleasure because I heard him yell "That is not that nigga baby!! Stop playing!" Who knew such a respectable pediatrician would enjoy the drama of Maury. As I stepped into our room he was just coming out of his walk-in closet. He was wearing blue Nike basketball shorts and was carrying a t-shirt in his hand. He was so sexy and the sight of him made my heart skip a beat. He hadn't noticed me as I watched him in awe! Like a school girl who snuck into the boys locker room.His bare chest and abs were a sight to see. But finally he noticed me after adjusting his t-shirt over his body.

"Oh! Hey Gee! I didn't see you."

"Hey Jordan, How are you?" He hesitated and sat on the bed. The deep breath he took before answering made me nervous of his response.

"Not good gee! For the time in three months you called me Jordan. Not Mr. Jordan, baby or babe. And I feel like that's my fault." I smirked as I flopped down next to him.

"How did we even get to this!? The good news is you're not the cause of the most important man in my life being hurt by some dumb ass shit that I did. I am"

Since the kiss happened I had been regretting even going to Ruby's funeral. My love for her was what had me in this situation. And in no way am I blaming a deceased woman for my bad decisions I just wished I would've declined to go with Jarvis. Maybe if I'd just gone to her grave sight days after her service and grieved away from him instead of interacting with Jarvis by going to the funeral things would be so different right now.

"Giselle I'd be an asshole if I let you take all the blame. I played a part too in hurting the most amazing woman in my life." Jordan's touch as he grabbed my hand sent a strong charge through my body. It was taking everything in me to not jump his bones right now. And he had the nerve to smell so damn good.

"No! Jordan you did nothing wrong. I should've told you everything from the beginning. Had I not felt something when Jarvis and I kissed I would've told you but I did and those feelings scared me. But the more time I spent with you I realized there was no other man I'd rather be with than you." I rubbed under my eyes to keep the tears from pouring down my face before continuing. Jordan sat in silence as I spoke my peace.

"After realizing that, I tried to tell you the night I made you dinner hoping that I didn't wait to long but you got called to meet with your Contractor. I was so upset that I couldn't tell you I even vented to my brother. His crazy self came up with this dumb idea to-"

"Give me Laxatives so I would listen to you while I shit my brain's out. I know. I was there."

"You were there!? When!? How!?" I pulled my head back to look search his face to see if he was telling the truth. I needed to make sure I heard him correctly.

"I see the wheels turning in your head so I'll explain. I came in from my meeting as you were telling Devyn what happened. I listened at the same spot I did when Jarvis was there last night. As you two got up I left back outside quietly and sat in my car.I prayed to God begging him to give me reasons to stay with you as I scrolled through my camera roll looking at pictures of us. I was mad at first but hearing you say that losing me would kill you, that's when I knew your love for me was real. So I let it go and tried to plan something special for us. I was gonna tell you that you could let that guilt go because I knew it hurt you."