Bite me if you dare! [ Jeon Jungkook FF]✔

15🌸 Different sides🌸

"Life just sucks sometimes." Sighend Jungkook out and kept his eyes at the sky." Its not like I'm having hard times or something else, it's just-"

"Its just your mum, am I right?" You went in between his sentence and he nood his head." Yes, you know.. mhm... how can I explain it." He titled his head thoughtfully aside and bit his lower lip to find the right words." Just say it how it is." You added shifting in your position to get more comfertable.

"Hm... I just don't want her to treat me like a baby, I'm not the small kid anymore, I want her to care for herself and do the things that could make her happy without to think about me for once. Joining to the gang, I thought maybe so I could show her that I can't take care of myself and she don't have to worry about me, silly I know. I saw many times her crying when my father Dissapeared. Do you know what this can make you feel? Seeing your mother crying over a man, climbing into an illusion that showed her that's just a failure feeling. The feeling that is just overrated."

Listening to each word that he let out, you recognized your own thoughts in them. You saw many times how your mother cried when she missed your father, how she climbed that love is not a illusion, but it's a beautiful feeling, that would make you feel like the happiest person on the world, that is a reason for your sudden straight and power writhin you, for the reason why you want to become suddenly a better version of yourself. And still you wont belive in it anymore. This feeling, was killed for you for once and for ever.

His emotions kept balancing between calm anger when he talked about his father, you assumed he must be the reason for everything, for his attitude, for his hateful feelings towards love. Looking through the corner of your eyes at him, you saw how his eyes mingled with sadness and anger. " So you was never in love with someone?" You breathed out and faced again the sky. "No. But i don't might to have some fun with-" Jungkook stopped himself from further talking as he realised what he was gonna to say. Lowring his head down his cursed at himself mentally.

He felt like he shouldn't have said that, it would be just give you the wrong sight of him and maybe shatter all the chances, that he might have in million peaces, before he would knew it.

You chuckled and sit up straight, wrapping your arms around your knees, head turning to his direction and your ice blue eyes at his dark ones."So Mr. Jeon Jungkook likes to have some fun with girls but wont fall in love, huh?" You said teasingly, and somehow you didn't liked the thought about him being with other girls. It made you feel weird in your chest when your heart ached slightly.

"Can we please change the topic, what about you. What is bothering you. I already told you something about me, it's your turn now." He added looking seriously at you. He got eager to know what was in your mind and maybe you would tell him what were the things between you, Namjoon and Yoongi. He knew that Hoseok had a part in it, what made him feel already the anger more before you could even start.

"Me? Hm.. well actually there is nothing interesting about me. I live apparently with my mum together, my dad is always of some kind of sort buissnes trips. And actually I don't mind that at all, I never have been close to him, and I don't want to though. Most of my problems, he is the cause of them. In the meantime when he is away, I have to deal with. I have to deal with that my mum is getting sometimes depressed about the fact that he have to leave and stay a long time away. It may sound like I would complained about it but it's not like that. Sometimes I wish my dad wouldn't come back and just leave us alone, but that is a wish what I can't let happen because of my mum."

"Because she loves him." Scoffed Jungkook out and shook his lowred head.
"Right, and actually I'm of the opinion like you, love is a overrated feeling, an illusion. Show me one person that will stay forever with their partner, or even to be all the time beside this person. There isn't even one person that wouldn't time to time lie or betray their partner. Like you said it's just a illusion." Your dissapointed voice climbed into his ears and he sensed it immediately.