Today Was A Fairytale

Chapter Ten

I stretched my arm across the bed feeling for Alli. When I couldn't find her, I opened my eyes and looked at the empty space next to me. I sat up and looked around the hotel room. I found Alli sitting in a chair next to the table. She looked so hot sitting, staring blankly into space. I realized her expression, and it made me get out of bed.

I picked up my boxers that were still laying on the floor and pulled them on before putting my arm around Alli and sitting on the armrest of the chair. "What's wrong?"

Up close, her expression was terrified. "We... we didn't use protection, did we?"

Shit. I completely forgot about that. I was caught up in the moment... and she must have been too. I instantly felt sick.

"I... uhm... I didn't," I pulled my arm off of her and held onto my stomach. "I'm guessing you didn't have anything?"

She still stared blankly at nothing. "Nope." There was a long pause. She closed her eyes and quietly asked me, "Justin, what if I'm pregnant?"

I closed my own eyes trying to picture Alli and I together with a baby. The thought made me feel even more sick. I opened my eyes again and scooted over so I would be sitting on the chair next to her.

She opened her eyes and looked at me for the first time since last night. Tears started running down her face. "I... I can't have a baby, Justin... I just..." She trailed off and covered her face with her hands.

I put my hand on her shoulder. "We're not going to tell anyone, you know, until we know for sure?" I'd rather not tell anyone, but I knew that we had to tell our moms.

"I think I might call my mom now..." Her voice still had no emotion.

I shook my head. "Let's wait until we get back. This is something that should be told in person."

Alli stood up and sat on my lap. "You're probably right... and what am I worrying about? Nothing is even official yet," She was obviously trying to calm herself down. I heard a loud sigh and she looked directly in my eyes. She stroked my hair and kissed me lightly on the cheek. "I love you."

"I love you too." I would have kissed her, but honestly, I don't think I could do anything to her now. I looked at the time and sighed. "I have to go to rehearsal, do you think you can come?"

She looked down at her stomach then answered. "I can go, just let me get dressed."

We got dressed and walked downstairs. The air around us was awkward and I think my mom and Scooter could tell. We weren't holding hands now and I wasn't just staring at her beauty all the time. They didn't ask anything, but I knew they wanted to the whole ride to rehearsals.

x~x

The day was was busy as ever. He had a concert to do, the reason we we're even in the Bahamas. It was 3 PM and he was in rehearsal. I got to sit and watch, how fun. I couldn't even concentrate on him and everything else going on, I was too focused on that one thing; what if I was pregnant? How could I be so stupid last night without even asking if he had protection. I sighed, closing my eyes. His song "Baby" blasted in the room and the last thing I wanted to do was sing and dance around. I didn't want to look stupid but I needed some alone time, with peace a quiet so I got up and walked out. I don't think he noticed, since he was too busy.

I sat outside the room, which surprisingly was quiet, no one even there. What. If. I. Was? Everything would be messed up. His career would be messed up, everyone would find out, my family would hate me more, and even his family that I never met would hate me. Justin did mention having a dinner for the last night here at the Bahamas but how could I try and pretend everything is okay when all I was doing was stressing out about this? I sighed again and closed my eyes again and pictured me holding a baby while Justin performed on stage. I felt tears pour down my eyes. If I was pregnant, what would happen to Justin? His career? What if I have a baby and he backs away? But what if I wasn't pregnant? What if I'm just stressing myself out? I mean, how could it be possible? People who die to have kids and are together never have a baby, but they wish they did. I mean there's options; Abortion. Adoption. I couldn't even think like that though. Abortion is killing a precious, innocent baby. Adoption would be too hard, considering I had the baby but I'm giving it away..

I heard the door open and I instantly opened my eyes and turned my head to see who it was. "Hey." It was Justin.

"Hi." I responded.

"Why'd you leave? You didn't wanna see me practice?"

"I did, but I just wanted to think and be alone, you know?"

"Oh." He replied. "I understand. You're still stressing out..about you know?"

All I could do was nodd. "Don't worry, we don't even know for sure yet, you're just stressing yourself out."

He made it seem so easy, like I can't be stressed. "I know but I'm just thinking, if I was what would happen?"

"If you were, I'd be by your side."

"But what about your career, huh? That would be all messed up. We're only 16, Justin."

"We would just... keep it a secret."

My mouth dropped. "How? I would be like a freaking whale!"

He laughed, "You wouldn't be a whale!"

"You know I would be though!" I tried to laugh, but I just couldn't. I looked right in his eyes. "Justin, I'm really freaked out about this."

"I am too," He sat down next to me and slid his arm around me. "But we can't take it back..."

I sighed and tilted my head on his shoulder. After all that has happened in the past few hours, he still made me feel so much better. "The thing is... I don't regret... doing what we did..." I slowly trailed off.

"Neither do I, I'm glad I got to be closer to you."

I smiled and leaned in for a kiss. It was actually just a short and simple kiss. "So uh, do you wanna go back to the hotel? I have to get ready for the concert and then after the concert, we have to go to dinner, so while I'm on stage, maybe you can get ready."

I sighed. "Alright." He took my hand and we got up slowly and into the place.

We we're back at the hotel and I fell back on the bed. "I don't know why but I'm extemely tired."

He looked at me and laughed. "I think I know why."

I rolled my eyes, "Ha ha, shut the fuck up!" I sat down on the chair that I was before.

Justin stood in front of me and I stared right into his beautiful brown eyes. He smiled. "I love you, Alli."

"I love you too," I quietly whispered.

He lightly kissed me on the lips, but what I really needed was a real kiss. As he moved his head away, I grabbed onto his head and pushed it towards mine. I kissed him and he kissed back. He pulled me out of the chair and slammed me against the wall as he did yesterday.

He pulled back when we were completely out of air and smiled. "I needed that."

"Me too."

Justin walked to the bathroom doorway and pulled off his shirt. My eyes were locked on his chest as he laughed. He pulled his shorts off and my eyes slowly moved where they were staring. Soon his boxers were off and I felt like I did last night. I sat up straighter as he turned around and closed the door to take a shower.

I sat waiting, thinking about last night, until he came out with a towel around himself. Justin got dressed and took me to the room where he was performing in. I sat backstage while he sang "Baby", and I tried my best not to think about the obvious. He sang "Somebody To Love", then "Never Let You Go". He kept looking over at me when he performed it, but just singing "I'll never let you go" doesn't prove that he won't let me go when I'm having his child. He brought a girl up and sang "One Less Lonely Girl", then ended with "One Time".

He got off of the stage and hugged me. "Did you like the show?"

I nodded and bit my lip. I had too much thinking time.

"What's wrong?" He looked at me with his concerned face again.

"I was just... thinking," I paused, "You really won't let me go, huh?"

"Of course, I'll nev-"

I cut him off, "Even when I'm a fucking big, fat whale? Even when people want to kill me because I'm pr-"

This time he put his hand over my mouth. "Always, no matter what."