Big Bang~ T.O.P - Nothing

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     You stood there, looking at him. You were about to burst into tears, but you didn't want him to see you cry, so you bit your lip and managed not to cry. 

"I want to break up." He tells you in a whisper. You and the handsome Choi Seunghyun have been secretly dating for the past 6 mouths and out of the blue he tells you he's done. 

     You let go of his hand and stared at him in disbelief. "What?" You manage to say without your voice breaking. You start thinking about a million things at once. You start to think if you did something wrong, trying to find what went wrong in what it seemed to you a perfect relationship. You're eyes are starting to burn and you know you're coming close to crying. To calm yourself down you run your hands through you hair. 

"I want to break up, I'm done." His voice is cold and emotionless. You had ignored how off he was today, how he wasn't smiling as much and if he was it seemed forced, his eyes wouldn't sparkle as they use too and he held your hand without a care. You tell yourself that you should have seen these signs and paid attention to them. Seunghyun hasn't been the same since he returned from Japan a week ago. Did something happen over there? 

"Did I? Did I do something wrong?" You say. "Is...there someone else?" You look away afraid that he might catch you crying. You wipe them away quickly then you look back at him and you manage to stare at his eyes. He's not looking at you, he's looking at something behind you. 

"No. I didn't find someone else," Seunghyun sighes and looks down. "I just don't love you anymore." 

      That hit you like a slap in the face. 

"How could you say that!" You say, hurt. 

"Ugh, ______-ah, I have more important things to do, I don't want to fight over our break up," He says. 

"How did this happen? Explain to me Seunghyun! I use to be more important to you than anything else!" You say. 

"I'm sorry, I need to focus on my career, how is that for an explanation? I need to go." He tuckes his hands in his jacket pockets, turnes around and walkes away. 

3 YEARS LATER 

 

    You walk into a local coffee shop, you had a date and you were going to meet here for a drink of coffee. You had been seeing this man for a while and he's been such a good man to you. You sit down at a table and decide to read a little while you wait. The waitress brings you a coffee, and you put up to your lips to take a sip. You look up to see Seunghyun at the far side of the coffee shop. He's smiling and talking to JiYong, once he looks up, he sees you. 

    You sigh and look down. You place the coffee down and start to debate weather you should go over there and talk to him. But someone is calling your name so you look up to see JiYong flagging you over. I guess this is it, you thought as you stand up and walk over to their table. 

"_____-ah! I haven't seen you in a while!" JiYong tells you right when you're close. 

"I know, I've been around." You say smiling. You're not hurting as much as you thought you would but there is still something there. 

"So, what are you doing here?" He says. 

     Then you remember you had a date. 

"Oh, I have a date." You say which leads to Seunghyun's head shooting up to look at you. 

"Really? With?" JiYong continues carefully. 


"He's someone I met recently, I mean we've gone out before so we're meeting again." You say.

"Oh." JiYong says. 

"______?" You turn to see your date at the your table.

"Oh," You tell him you'll be right over. "Bye!" You wave at them both.

"Let's go." You tell you're date.

"But I thougt we were going to eat here." He says.

"No, we should go somewhere else." You grab his hand and guide him out of the coffee shop.

     You're heart doesn't stop racing until you think you're far enough away. You and your date have a nice night, dinning at a nice resturant, walking to your house, holding hands. You start to feel those tiny butterflies in your stomach, like you use too.

    He kisses you finally, sweetly on the lips before leaving. You smile and go inside.

 

 

 

 

~~~~~~~~~~~MIDNIGHT ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

      There's a banging at your door, you look at the digital clock and see it's the middle of the night. You walk to your door, half asleep. You open the door and find Seunghyun on the other side. You immediately wake up, he looks drunk. His hair is in mess and his nice button down shirt is unbutton by a few buttons and his coat is open. Leaving him not fully protected by the cold. 

      He looks up at you, staring into your eyes. You can tell that he's sad and broken. He sighes and runs his fingers through his hair before talking. 

"I'm sorry, _____-ah, I was stupid, I thought I could live with out you, but I can't. You're all I think about, there's not a day that goes by that you're not in my head. I don't know why I broke up with you, really I was stupid to even think about it. I'm lost without you, I don't want anybody but you, I didn't know what I had till I lost it. I'm so sorry_____, I would do anything to go back and tell myself what I know now, ______, what I know now is that I've never stopped loving you, I lied to you back then, I could never stop loving you____. I don't know what went thought my head when I told you that. I don't know why I didn't go after you, I should of, but after a year went by, I thought you've moved on from me, I realized that I never moved on, I'm still in love." He says.  

     You sigh and said nothing. 

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