And When He Is Here // hayes grier

Chapter 23

↠Bradie

I took off down the hall back to Hayes' room. I got stares from people while I was running down the hall; it's not like they haven't seen a girl running in the hospital before. When I got to Hayes' room the door was open unlike before. From where I was standing I could only see the foot of his bed. It didn't seem like anyone else was in there either. I turned around and I didn't see my family or Hayes'. Didn't bother me at all.

I inched closer to Hayes room. Taking small steps. I don't know why but I was hesitating to see him, and at the same time I wanted nothing more. I got up to his door frame. It didn't notice I was standing there but that was okay, because I got to watch him. He was staring at the TV playing in front of him. I watched him. His hair was messy and adorable at the same time. He had the little tubes that wrapped around his ears then to his nose. I felt tears filling up my eyes, my vision became blurry but once I blinked it was okay. A few tears rolled down my cheeks but I just left them.

"Bradie!"

"Hey." I said softly. I ran up to him and hugged him to death. I sat on the side of his bed still having my arms wrapped around him. I started sobbing and I felt bad I was getting the shoulder of his hospital gown wet. "I missed you so much." I cried.

"I love you so much." He rubbed the back of my head.

"I love you too." I whispered.

"Baby it's okay. I'm okay." I pulled back from our hug.

"I couldn't loose you. I couldn't- I couldn't loose you."

He took his thumb and wiped away a few strand tears on my cheeks. "You're not going to lose me."

"How can you be so sure?"

"Why are you doubting that?"

"Because. I've lost so many people in my life and it's taught me that life is so fragile and can be changed in a second. And when you give someone the power to control your entire day, they can easily control your life. And I know life can be taken in a spilt second, and to the people you never thought it would be taken to."

He took a couple seconds to process what I just told him. The corners of his mouth slower went upward. "Damn. I love you."

I laughed through my tears. I managed it give him a smile.

"It's when you say things like that, that make me fall in love with you more." He said again.

I leaned forward and gently placed my lips on his. We've never really 'made out' but we definitely were now. Our lips moved in sync together for about 40 seconds. I pulled away slowly and opened my eyes. He scooted over in his bed to make room for me to lay down. I gladly excepted and rested my head on his shoulder. "I don't want to go home."

"Why not?" he asked.

"I have to see my mom."

"I'm confused." He admitted.

I sighed "I have a brother."

"Uh I'm very well aware."

"I'm not talking about Ryan. I have a brother that survived the accident."

"B that's great!" he lifted his head up and looked at me. I stared at him.

"I don't know that it is."

His facial expression went from excited to confused in a second, "why not?"

"Because I've been lied to for 7 years. And I don't even know if he knows about me. And I'm assuming the reason I wasn't told about him is so I didn't know about him. I'm not sure if I can handle knowing about him but not being able to talk to him."