And When He Is Here // hayes grier

Chapter 4

↠Bradie

The first week of school has gone by pretty uneventful. We didn't have much work because it was only the first week. But lacrosse is great, I had met the coach and other players. I was looking forward to it.

But Dylan wasn't at school today. I haven't got to check my phone all day though, so he might have texted me.

After the 6th hour bell rang I went to my locker which was right across from Dyl's. I clicked my lock button to see I had a few texts. One from Ryan, one from Dylan-which I was happy about- and one from my mom.

I opened my moms first:

-Hey honey. Hope school is going good. We need to talk right when you get home so don't go to practice. I already told your coach you weren't going to be there and I told Ryan's. okay see you when you get home. Love you.

I was beyond confused. So I replied 'okay'.

I opened Ryan's second:

-do you have any clue why mom told my coach I wasn't going to be at practice. She said it had to do with you. So thanks for that.

I replied what I was thinking :
-you're welcome asshole

Now was Dylan's:

-I'm sorry okay. I just didn't know what to do and I panicked. I am panicking. But I'm gonna be just fine. Remember that I love you. More than I love any one in the entire world. You're my everything. I'm so sorry I hurt you. Im sorry that my life always hurt you. But I know this choice of actions will fix it. But I did what I think is best. Neither of us will be hurt anymore because of me. It will solve everything. Okay? I love you to death B. please please never forget that. It's not your fault. None of it is. It's everyone who bullied me and every time my parents hit me. And when me and my sister got split up. It's not you. I love you. And I'm in love with you. And I always will be B. I'm going to miss you so much. I know you're the only reason I'm alive. Please don't miss me too much. I'm better now. Away from it all. It's okay. It will all be okay. And you will find someone to treat you right. Find some one. Don't hang on to me. And find some one who's worth it. Some one who can help you. Some one to love you and you can love with no regrets. Some one to tell you that you are beautiful. Because oh my god you are the most beautiful girl I have ever laid eyes on. And someone to tell you they love you. And someone to show it. I know it will be easy for you. Find someone to love the way I do. And you can just always just ask me. For anything I will find away to tell you. I love you B. don't ever forget or regret that. I promise. Everything.

-Dylan Jacob O'Brien

As I was reading I didn't even realize I was crying. I was in the middle of the hallway. Crying. I was so confused.

I don't know what the hell is going on.
I just ran. Ran home. Didn't even think about getting on that bus. Not without Dylan.
I was having an issue running and crying at the same time. When I got into my neighbor hood I sprinted toward my house.

I saw an ambulance in Dylan's drive way. I stopped in my tracks, my heart plunged into my stomach and I swear I would pass out any second

My mom saw me in the street staring at his house, she came up behind me and hugged me. I was sobbing and I couldn't even catch my breathe right ask any questions. I had so many questions.

Slowly falling to the ground, my mothers arms were wrapping around me. Through my tears I asked her, barley getting the words out, "is that him?"

"I'm so sorry sweetie, he killed himself. He's gone. I'm so sorry, he loved you so much." She answered me whispering and crying. She was petting my hair, trying her best to comfort me. All I wanted to do was push her off of me and run.