Last Words and New Beginnings

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Okay , something guys don't understand about girls is how hard it is to get yourself to look decent after crying . but im trying .

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I walk down into the living room to deliver some news to Sam that I've been needing to say for a while now . and I'm not sure how it's gonna go .

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Sam's standing in the kitchen , and when he hears me enter the room he turns from the fridge and looks at me . I just look at him .

"Hey Audrey ... everything alright?"

"actually Sam , that's why I'm here ..."

I feel my eyes get teary .

waterproof mascara would have been a better choice .

I look up at Sam and say

"let me start off by saying thank you so much for everything you've done for me the past year and a half . it means the world to me that you have stood by me through all our fights . I know I've been off my game lately but I'm understanding myself a little better now . and that's where you come in Sam . by me understanding myself I realize..."

I choke up

"I realize that I can't be here with you anymore"

and the waterworks begin .

"I'm so sorry Sam , it's just ... I don't know . I need Jason . I need him in my life . whether you understand me or not , I need it ."

he just stands there for a second before walking over to me and pulling me into the tightest hug .

"Audrey , whatever makes you happy"

I just cry into his chest .