It's not fair, I didn't want to come here in the first place! And now you're taking away from me everything I finally found. I need my baby, my confident, my angel, and my bubble, my Nemo. They are my world. I can not go home, because my home is now here, and no where is gonna be the same. They are part from my life, my heart, my everyday, my blood. You planted me here 7 years ago, my roots finally grew here and now you wanna plant me somewhere else. Well sorry to tell you it's to late, if you snatch me now from my ground I will die. Life wouldn't make sense without them, they are the reason I wake up every morning, the reason I didn't jump when I was on the edge. I need them like I need water, like I need air. They are the one's who make me breath easier, the ones that keep me on my feet when I don't even have the energy to talk. They are the one's I love with all my heart, and going back to Switzerland just make me feel like everything I created here will be destroyed. I feel the urge to run in there arms every morning at the second I step in the school. They make me laugh when the world seems to want to kill me. They are my rocks, and my world. I need these diamonds, they are my pillars without them my world is gonna fall apart. Even in my worst time they are here with me, I can not imagine how im gonna do without them. I am not a fucking dog, I wasn't born to follow you every where you go, let me stay and I will be the happiest. My life is here, I belong here, with them. I love you but without them my heart is not gonna be able to love ever again. Two days without seeing them, hearing there voice or laughing at theirs horribly bad jokes feels like eternity. So having to stay away from them for more that two month is gonna be so painful. "It's a new start" They tell me, but I never said I wanted to start again, my life here is finally complete and I know I have people to count own, my heart is finally healing. Don't make it break again, I wouldn't support it, they are the glue to the million pieces my heart broke. Without them, I'm not gonna be able to love again. I am finally living and not surviving , please let me live a little longer, I am not ready to die. I am to young to die, I now truly and fully live, like everyday is the last and my world could stop anytime. I live as it's gonna be my last year on the earth, because I know that the second I step in that plane to Switzerland my heart will stop and the world will continue without me. Cause my heart will be broken and nothing will make it better. I am a bomb with only 11 month left on her countdown. Don't get near me I don't want to hurt you when my heart is gonna explode. Live your best life after me, I was a chapter in the book of your life and I am so proud to say I love you. You deserve to truly live, so don't stop for me.
With lots of lies to Lilou, Bastien, Maxim, Malo, and Alexandre
From a black bubble.
Hey this is the first text I'm posting on this new book. It's talking about me going back to Switzerland. It's my home country, but I am for now on living in Singapore. It's my 7 years, and I have to go back at the end of the school year. So here you have what I think.
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Love, Lied and Lost...
RandomThis isn't a story, it isn't happy, it isn't sad... It's just plain me and no one else. I love writing and I just needed this book to write everything that I want to tell but that I have no one to. I don't want you to enjoy or to tell me can relate...
