Love, Lied and Lost...

In a broken heart beat

You're on the other side of a phone, but you're speaking on your own... I wish I could help you but my mind is falling apart. But my voice died the minute I stepped in my room, my smile left as soon as I heard my sad music, and my depression rushed back when I saw that my computer was on my wattpad texts. Life isn't easy but I'll do my best to make it simpler for you, my heart is already broken so I promise I'm gonna protect yours until I die. You thanked me for my answer to your comment on instagram. how can you understand that it was my only option at the time. I tried helping you cause I can't help myself anymore... My body is already soulless so I am trying my best to keep your heart beating a bit more everyday, and I'll continue until I leave this planet because you are like a precious diamond, you are only one yer younger than me, and it's been only a week we talk but I consider you as my little sister, I am trying to be your angel. So every night before I go to bed, I imagine what I could send you in the morning. And I create a new message so I know you'll wake up to someone telling you you're beautiful and strong, and that you deserve the best. Words are my way to fight, and my way to protect. Words are my way to cry and my way to laugh. So I use them to keep you from taking your life, because you deserve to be happy, because you deserve true love, because you deserve to live... So you'll wake up to an instagram notifications each and every day strong girl. You're a gold in this rock world, let me help you, let me get you trough those tough times. People that mock you are just jealous of how strong you are, and how smart and sweet you can be. Don't look back ,darling, you're not going that way. Keep your chin up and show the world what it's like to be a queen. No one has the right to tell you how to love or how to hate, no one can tell you how to live or how to die, they can't tell you how to dream or how to be realistic. Make your own choice, don't worry about what people will say just worry about what you're gonna say to your children the day they will ask you why. Ask you why you didn't stop school or why you did, ask you why you didn't get married or you divorced, the day they'll ask you how you survive your teenage years, and how you didn't die. Keep smiling, no one is lovable enough to get it off your lips, it's yours for ever and ever. Let these tears roll down your cheeks, crying doesn't mean you're weak it just means you were strong for too long. Don't try to not ever get hurt again, just choose who has the right to hurt you and who hasn't. If boys aren't what movies tell you they are, it's normal... If you feel like society is bullshit, it's normal... If you sometimes feel like giving up on life just remember that somewhere in this whole world there's someone thinking the same thing. Try and imagine what would you tell the person standing on the edge of his balcony, his family sleeping or maybe that doesn't have a family. Now imagine this person is yourself, would you tell yourself the exact same thing? Cause that's what you need to do. I know that when you'll be on the edge, feet in the void, the only thing you're gonna think about is how simple death can be and how horribly peaceful it sounds. But just get back in your bed and continue to give yourself just one more day, even if it takes millions and millions of those one more days before you go to bed telling yourself I can't wait to wake up tomorrow morning. You deserve the universe even if the world doesn't deserve you, you deserve every jewelry in the whole damn world even if they doesn't deserve to be wear by you. 

I wrote this text for a girl named Ashleyh we don't really talk but I try to send her a motivating message every morning. I know her life isn't easy right now... But I lived some really difficult and challenging times, so I'm trying my best to keep her going. So just a word for her:

Keep going you deserve every bit of love I can give you!

From a blak bubble.