Drugs, they say you take them one time and get addicted... And that addiction just get you to die faster. Am I a drug? Because you told me what you really thought of me. It wasn't a "petite de cable" like you call them... It was just you being realistic for one time. You saw the Monster i really am ... And now it's back to normal you'll say that I was busy or that I was battling my own demons. Fuck it why can't you see what I really am? I know you want me to stay close but I kill you... every time you see me you get more and more addicted so don't say... I can't stay near you knowing I'm the one hurting you. I know it's selfish of me to leave ... but it'll be even more if i stay. Please let me go we both need to learn to live without the other! You were a really good Friend and nothing will change that... but our friendship is poison like you said it... And it will only lead to you being more and more hurt... So stop saying you can't live without me or that I was probably busy with something else. I ain't perfect and I don't want to be... Why do you keep finding me excuses when I conduct myself as an asshole?! I love you and you know that but I won't have more time... I can't repair what I have broken in you, so just keep away and if you don't have the strength to, then I'll get away. Just stay here don't move anymore... We'll still be Friend but you'll have to live without me and I'll know you'll do perfect work with that. You said I looked scary now you know why... Because my demons and I were fighting and still do... I can't give you time and it hurts you, I can't repair what I broke, like I cant ignore the bruises, the scars that my silence did to you. And I can't stay here with you knowing I'm the one killing you... Like I'm one of the demons you have to fight everyday. Please let me go... I'm a selfish bastard and I know that. And I know there's nothing I can do that will help you but I can't anymore. I can't pretend everything is alright. You though I wasn't gonna read your poem but I did and even if I didn't say anything i read all of them... You say you wrote it thinking I wouldn't read but I know you wanted me to, it was a desperate cry for help. And the only thing I can do to help is leaving, because I'm the killing drug you're addicted to, because the only way for you to win this battle is for me to forfeit. So that's it. I won't keep you around me anymore. It's the end of our kill full friendship. I'll still be here if you need me... But you have to live without me now. I love you baby girl and I'll always will... Goodbye.
From a black bubble.
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Love, Lied and Lost...
RandomThis isn't a story, it isn't happy, it isn't sad... It's just plain me and no one else. I love writing and I just needed this book to write everything that I want to tell but that I have no one to. I don't want you to enjoy or to tell me can relate...
