I never knew life could hurt me so much, until now.
I never knew what a heart break actually felt like, until now.
I always thought I knew what pain felt like, but now I really do.
I thought I got my heart ripped out before, but I was wrong.
I never knew my father loved me so much
Until I saw his face filled with tears.
Telling me he'd loved me more than life
Telling me he'd fix everything
Telling me he'd never leave me
Telling me he'd get better, hoping I would too
Telling me he'd be okay.
I never knew my mother was so evil
Until I saw my fathers face filled with tears.
Telling me he felt like I did
Telling me he understood
Telling me he needed help
Telling me he would go, if I would too
Telling me he wanted me by his side.
I couldn't help but let the tears pour
And hug him so tight
Take yourself out of the equation
My sister says
It's not about you
Even though you feel the same way too
There's a reason you were the one to do this
It was him who needed you
You're the only one who understands
She said to me
You're the only one who can see
She doesn't bother Louis
And she doesn't bother me,
So it's left for him and you too
I'm not saying it's fair
But that's life baby girl.
I can't do this anymore
Can't you see?
I wasn't cut out for this
And neither was he!
She's killing me from the inside out
He knows the feeling too
It hurts so much Allie
There isn't anything left I can do
My heart just left my fucking body
I'm never going to be the same
To witness my father cry
Was something I never planned on seeing
It wasn't just a sight but a feeling too
I hope you and Louis never know it
Because it hurts more than a fresh wound.
Maybe I'm biased
But I don't really care.
To see my father in such a weak state
Has nothing to compare.
I hope he knows that I will always love him
And that I will help him too
He'll never have to struggle alone
Because I've felt it all before.
It's different when it's towards my mother
Than towards his wife
To hear the things he said
And the hurt in his voice
Brought a different meaning
You understand what I'm saying too,
There's a difference between a wife and a mom
Didn't she ever wonder why I don't want kids?
