unfair play // jjk

23 // to remember

I sighed and shoved my shoulder blades into the wall that held me upright from behind my back.
Jungkook returned with a glass of water in his hand and sat down on the edge of the bed beside me, handing me the water and my shaky hands took it from him slowly.

"We should still see a doctor." He said, tilting his head slightly.

I sipped the water quietly and smiled slightly. I swallowed the water slowly. "That's not necessary."

He didn't smile. "It is."

My smile faded and I tapped my long fingernails against the side of the glass that I held close to my chest. I could feel the glass begin to become warm from my burning skin.

He placed his hand on my cheek and his hand forced my face to turn to his.

His hand resting on my face, he froze and seemed to forget I was there.

"Jungkook?"

He flinched and his hand jerked off my face. He shook his head slightly and looked down in embarrassment.

"...You're still burning a fever." He stood up and turned his back to me, walking slowly to my desk and grabbing his phone off the corner.

"Jungkook, really, it's just a fever. There's no need to go to the hospital." I placed my mouth softly on the rim of the, what felt like, ice cold glass.
I froze for a moment and let my lips rest on the edge, when the thought of Jungkook flashed through my mind.
His lips pressed up against mine and I seemed to lose focus. I bit the rim of the glass and immediately snapped out of it, sipping the water quickly to wash my mouth from the thought of him.

"Hyemi?"

I jerked my head up and saw Jungkook standing at the end of the bed, his jacket thrown over his shoulders.

"Hm?" My eyes widened.

"Do you think you'll be okay on your own for the night?"

I wanted to say no, just to have him here and just to remember the times we had, but I couldn't seem desperate.

"I'll be okay." I half-smiled.

He tilted his head and sighed. "Good. I was getting tired of caring anyway."

I laughed and clenched my jaw. "Yeah. That's right, that's why you stayed here for 2 hours."

He shoved his hands in his pockets. "I'd be nothing but the devil had I have left you here in that state."

I turned my head back to him and sat forward, placing the water glass on the small table beside me and swinging my legs down.
I shakily stood up, feeling my head get dizzy as I balanced my weight. But I did the exact opposite; it didn't seem I could stand at all. I immediately buckled forward and felt nothing but the air until I felt someone's arms wrapped around me.

"Hyemi?"

My eyes opened and I was leaned into Jungkook's arms, who had caught me before I made a crash landing on the hard wooden floors.

"..J-Jungkook.." I muttered, as my head pounded and the dizziness made me question if I was dreaming.

He hummed in response, allowing me to continue.

"..I'm sorry," I managed to get out quietly.

I felt something that seemed much like a small laugh from his chest. "Yes. You should be. You're a pain."

I sighed and tried to stand myself up again.

"No. Don't try to stand up. You're too weak." Jungkook's arms tightened around my back and I felt my feet leave the floor. "Why are you sorry?"

My back suddenly hit the soft mattress again and I felt him pull the heavy duvet over my legs and torso, tucking it tightly.

"I-I...." My mouth didn't want to open and my mind begged to turn off. "Maybe...maybe you shouldn't go."

My eyes felt like magnets, begging to close and refusing to open, but through the blurry orbs of light and what I could see in front of me, I think I saw Jungkook smile slightly.

He sighed and ran his hands over my head and his fingers through my hair. "I have to say, you're quite demanding."

I wanted to laugh, and in my head I did, and even insulted him back but I couldn't find the physical energy to respond at all. My mind started to fade out from the real world, into an alternate universe that was nothing but eternal, pitch black, that swarmed my memory and my vision. My ears seemed to close and the world became as though I floated under 6 feet of water, and his words were almost ones I couldn't seem to comprehend.
His smile still mirrored off the void in my head and I used the last bit of my energy to make my own mouth smile in return to his.

I didn't know if I was dreaming when I could hear Jungkook's whisper fill my head.

"Maybe that's why I loved you."