BTS Angsts

I'm Fine/Taehyung

Your POV

"I'm feeling just fine I'll let go of your hand now."

The course of life and destiny is a study that'll never be fully understood. We can major in it in college, become a scientist, we can do it all. But there are always those deeper meanings that are out of our reach and understanding.

"Y/N! Look who it is!" My friend teased.

I blushed upon the sight of my crush and male best friend Taehyung.

"You're so annoying Minji!" I whined.

Taehyung, well he was like my hero. It's cliche but it's the only way to describe it. In primary school, I was constantly picked on, and always wanted to run away from life. At least until Taehyung started to stick up for me. He'd always tell others off, and created a makeshift shield around me. We also ended up becoming best friends. And in middle school, when roles were reversed and he was getting picked on, I stepped right in front and defended him. We were each other's life vines.

It wasn't until my beginning year of high school that I realized that I liked him more than a friend. This admiration towards his kindness he gave me drew me to him. It was a magnetic force that had me in a strong hold.

But it had been six years since I developed my feelings for him. I was in my third year of college, but luckily, Taehyung went to the same one as me. This was the year that I promised myself I would confess to him.

He'd been sending a lot of signals and flirty signs towards me. At least I hope they were. He'd always wink at me, and he'd constantly stare. Not to mention his huge need to buy me gifts wherever we went. He was a gentleman if anything.

"Yah Y/N! Stop daydreaming! Tell me how you're going to confess to him!" Minji squealed.

"It's not rocket science Minji. I'm going to talk to him privately and confess," I said.

"How underrated and sweet!" Minji cooed.

"Would you relax?" I teased.

"No. Now go and confess!" She pleaded.

I rolled my eyes, walking in the direction of Taehyung.

I saw him in a classroom with a couple of his guy friends. Not wanting to disturb them, I waiting outside.

"Hey Taehyung, how long are you going to stay friends with Y/N?"

"I don't know. Until her parents pay my parents enough I guess."

"Tae, you should really cut her off now. It's not fair to her. I know your parents need the money and hers are incredibly rich, but it's only going to hurt her more the longer you wait to tell her."

"I know, but either way she'll be hurt. I had a job to protect her, so I will do so until I don't have to."

"Hyung, I know you mean well, but really it's not fair to her. You're being her friend for money. When it's put that way it sounds bad. You protect her but had no intent on being her friend."

"Would you guys relax? It's not like she'll ever find out. And then when the time is right, I'll just stop talking to her. Simple."

My heart was torn to shreds. How could he ever say that? How could he ever do such a horrible thing?

"How about you start now?!" I screamed running away.

I ran the direction opposite of Minji, wanting to be alone for a bit.

I stopped catching my breath. Watching the tears fall to the carpeted floor.

"Y/N!" Taehyung yelled.

"Stay away from me!" I shouted back.

"Would you just listen to me?!" He exclaimed.

"I heard enough Taehyung! I got the message!" I fired back.

"I'm sorry, but my parents and I were tight with money," he said.

"Then you shouldn't have pretended to be my friend! I would've rather never known who you were then experience the hurt I'm feeling now!" I yelled.

"Y/N, it looks bad I know, but spending all these years with you made me realize how much I like being your friend," he defended.

"No Tae! It doesn't work that way! You don't get to be nice now! Not after what I've heard! You can't change what you said! And you can't take it back! You said it, I heard it, end of story!" I exclaimed.

"You're mad, I get it, but you're blowing things a little out of proportion," he said.

"You really want to know why I'm blowing things out of proportion?!" I challenged.

"Quite frankly yes, because you're acting like a child having a tantrum!" He said.

"Because I love you. And I've loved you for six years. I was too into you to realize how dense you are. I loved you. And I wanted to let you know that. But now I'd like to let you know this, I loved you. I don't love you anymore. And I never will. You'll be a bad memory in my past. That's all you'll be to me now. Thanks for protecting me or whatever, but to fulfill your future plans for our relationship, stop talking to me," I said, choking back another round of sobs.

"Y/N, please listen to me. It doesn't have to be this way," he pleaded.

"Taehyung, look me in the eyes and tell me you don't love me the way I love you," I said.

"Y/N-"

"Do it," I said.

He took a deep breath, and I knew exactly what was going to come out of his mouth.

"Y/N, I don't love you."

"That's what I thought. Just lie and say you're still protecting me or whatever your little scheme is. Goodbye Tae," I said, rushing past him.

I ran back towards Minji, embracing her tightly.

"Y/N, he's a jerk. You don't need him anyway," Minji said.

"I know," I said distantly.

She looked at me with her beautiful brown eyes full of concern.

"Are you okay?" She asked.

"I'm fine. We learn something new everyday right? I learned that I can hold my own hand. I don't need anyone else's but mine. I'm my own hero, and I can save myself."