BTS Angsts

One sided/Jimin

The cold air hits my face, it's finally winter. I've always liked the cold weather, especially snow and rain. I'm walking to school excited to see my boyfriend Jimin. I've never dated anyone before Jimin. I feel so lucky to call him mine. We've been dating for about 3 months now, but lately, he's ignoring me or acting very cold towards me. As I arrive at school, I hear my phone buzz and think it's Jimin but it's just a notification for an upcoming assignment. I head to my locker and put away some of my books. My eyes wander through the hallway to find him, and there he is, looking better than ever.

"JIMIN!!" I walk up to him.

"What do you want now?"

"I want to spend time with you," I cling onto his arm.

"No, I need some space," he pulls your hand away.

"But don't boyfriends and girlfriends spend time with each other?"

"Just leave me alone."

He storms off. How did I upset him? Maybe because I spammed his phone with messages but it was because I just wanted to talk. The bell rings and I rush to homeroom.

I sit in my seat and wait for the teacher to come in, but while I'm waiting, I see Jimin and another girl. They're just talking but it makes me jealous. I walk over there to show the girl he's not interested.

"Excuse me, do you need anything?" I say. She looks at me weirdly.

"I'm just talking to Jimin, who are you?"

"His girlfriend so back off," he puts his head down, almost like he's embarrassed by me. I was just trying to show her Jimin is mine.

He brings his head back up, "Y/n, have you noticed something?"

"No."

"You are so clingy! Ever since we started dating you kept spamming my phone and never gave me space. Please just... let's break up."

My eyes widen, "B..break up? You have to be kidding me, I have done nothing to you. I just wanted to spend time with you. If the feeling of love is mutual, then the couple should want to be around each other. You.. you never loved me, have you? WELL PARK JIMIN JUST KNOW I LOVE YOU, LIKE AN IDIOT", I rush out the room into one of the bathroom stalls. I cry until I can't feel anything. I never meant to mess up like this, is wanting to spend time with someone wrong? I walk out of the stall and see my running mascara, my puffed up eyes, and feel my heart ripped out of my chest. All those texts, the hugs, the laughs, the memories, never meant anything to him, just a distant dream that came true but was never actually meant to happen.

I splash my face with some water. I'm trying not to blame myself but I feel like it's all my fault. It really is, isn't it? Being clingy shouldn't be a bad thing in a relationship, it just shows that I want to be around him. But he's never really returned it. I would always tell him I loved him but he never replied back. If he knew this relationship wouldn't last, he shouldn't have even asked me out. I walk out of the restroom and into 1st period. People look at me like I'm crazy, Jimin doesn't even turn his head.

The lunch bell rings. I go up to Jimin, "Hey, I need to ask something."

"What?"

"While we were dating, did you ever love me?"

He takes a pause to think about his answer, "I've LIKED you but never love. Love is a strong word, I don't think I'll ever use it, or at least never for you."

I punch him right in the stomach, "Screw you."

Everyone's facial expression changes into a shocked look. I look at Jimin crouching and holding his stomach. "Jimin."

"Wha..what?"

"Love hurts," I wink and then get dragged off into the principal's office.