BTS Angsts

Shadow/Jungkook

"If I live in your shadow, does it mean I am your equal?"

Your POV

They're black as night.

Shady as a dealer.

Hidden as needle in a haystack.

Pieces of artwork only nature could make. Only the sun could reveal their presence.

Accentuating every curve of your body. From the shape of your nose, to the height of your body.

They follow you everywhere.

You may never acknowledge them.

But they're always right behind you.

Even if they don't get recognition for being there.

Jeon Jungkook.

My boy-wonder brother.

Being good at something wouldn't even compare to his capabilities.

You could be working in your area of expertise.

And then this man will show up and make it look like you've had no experience in that field.

I love him. He's my older brother and always there for me.

But he might be the only person who is.

He's the guy who gets out there. Not afraid to do what he wants and put himself out there, making the whole world know his name, entity at a time.

And then there's me.

The black silhouette that remains behind him at all times.

The one people step on.

The one people try to block from their memories.

The one that stands there in existence but lives there in nonexistence.

The shadow.

The one who lives in the dark.

Waiting, to be unveiled.

The beauteous silhouette who follows you everywhere.

Dancing their forsaken dance of lament.

Everyone, and I mean everyone, knew Jungkook's name.

And as for me, well what's the point of even having a name, if all that name will get me is a disappointed look from others as they realize I'm not Jungkook.

My entire existence is a disappointment.

I mean pop came Jungkook the miracle child.

And then pop came Y/N, the baggage.

I was deadweight to everyone.

To my parents the only part of me that existed was the part that couldn't be as awesome as Jungkook.

I was a failure at everything compared to Jungkook.