BTS Angsts

Hold My Hand And Smile/BTS

Jungkook's POV

It's been years since I've talked with any of the other members. I'm now a grandpa with two kids and four grandchildren. I always think back to my BTS days, sometimes I truly miss it. What I miss most was the people around me. I open my computer and search up, "BTS." I click on an old music video we made and I couldn't help but smile. I scroll down to the comments and they say, "Whose still an army?" "I miss them so much." "This music video was my childhood."

I missed our fans too. They were super supportive of all of us and gave us so much love. I suddenly get a call from Taehyung.

"Hello?"

"Jungkook, is this you?"

"Yeah this is me, how are you?"

"Not so good right now, come to the hospital, Jin is not well."

I grab my coat and my keys and speed to the hospital.

Once I reach his room, I see all the members huddled around the bed. I creak open the door and everyone's faces turn to me. They all came to give me a hug.

"I missed our baby."

I hug them but break away to see Jin. He looks horrible. "Hyung, what happened?"

"Oh I missed you." He holds my hand. A tear falls from my face. "I missed you so much too."

"I really wish we all could've gotten together before this. I will regret that for the time I have left to live." He sighs.

"Wait? You don't have much time?"

"Sadly not. I've had cancer and I didn't find out until later. Today I collapsed at my home so that's why I'm here." He said scared to meet my eyes.

All it brought was worry to me. "Hyung, I love you so much." I hold his hand.

"I love you too Kookie."

We all sat around Jin and talked to catch up with each other.

"Why haven't we gotten together earlier?" Jimin said.

"I wish we could've." Jin said.

We hold each other's hand and when we lift our hands up, we all say, "Bangtan!"

It made me smile slightly, but I kept looking at Jin who was losing life by the passing seconds.

"You guys should go eat. You don't have to stay with me."

"No, BTS is only BTS with 7 member, not 6." Namjoon said.

"You're still such a great leader." I said. He gives me a smile.

Hours pass by and we're still talking. We reminisce about our performing days, we watch a few videos, and we even talk about our trainee days.

"Woah, look how handsome we were." Hoseok said.

"We still are." Taehyung says with a wink.

Suddenly I feel someone's head on my shoulder. I look to my left and see Yoongi asleep. He didn't change.

"Let's take a photo." Jin says. We all get up and I wake up Yoongi.

We ask a nurse to take our photo. "Ok, 1, 2, 3!"

I take a look at the photo and I start to cry.

"Jungkook, you ok?" Jimin says.

"I.. I just love you guys a lot."

"We love you too." And they give me a smile. We huddle into a group hug.

"Wait guys, can you please call the nurse, my heart is hurting." Jin says.

Namjoon rushes to get the nurse. "Sorry guys, you need to exit the room right now."

"Once second miss." Jin says.

Instead of getting look at by the nurse right away, he chose to use his last moments of life on us. He looked at us with smiles and started singing the chorus of 2! 3!.

"괜찮아 자 하나 둘 셋 하면 잊어
슬픈 기억 모두 지워
내 손을 잡고 웃어
괜찮아 자 하나 둘 셋 하면 잊어
슬픈 기억 모두 지워
서로 손을 잡고 웃어"

If you translated the lyrics, they meant,
"It's alright, now count 1, 2, 3 and forget
Erase all sad memories
Hold my hand and smile
It's alright, now count 1, 2, 3 and forget
Erase all sad memories
Hold each others hands and smile"

It brought tears to all of our eyes and Jin closed his eyes and never opened them again.

Each member said something to him and left, it was too much for them. I looked at Jin and even if he couldn't hear me, I said goodbye.

"Be well Hyung."