That Ballah Love: Down For My Ballah

Chapter 52(PART 2)- Hurt Feelings

I truly loved you, but now im walking away.   -- Jonny Lang

Fuck You for cheating on me. Fuck you for reducing it to the word cheating. As if this were a card game, and you sneaked a look at my hand. Who came up with the term cheating,anyway? A cheater, I imagine. Someone who thought liar was too harsh. Someone who thought devastator was too emotional. The same person who thought, oops, he’d gotten caught with his hand in the cookie jar. Fuck you. This isn’t about slipping yourself an extra twenty dollars of Monopoly money. These are our lives. You went and broke our lives. You are so much worse than a cheater. You killed something. And you killed it when its back was turned. --David Levithan

If you have to speculate if someone loves you and wants to be with you, chances are they don't. It's not that complicated. Love, in most cases, betrays the one feeling it. Don't waste moments waiting and wondering. Don't throw away your time dreaming of someone that doesn't want you. No one is that amazing, certainly not the one who would pass you up.   -- Donna Lynn Hope

I imagine one of the reasons people cling to their hates so stubbornly is because they sense, once hate is gone, they will be forced to deal with pain.    -- James Baldwin

No, I am not bitter, I am not hateful, and I am not unforgiving. I just don't like you. -- C. Joybell C

Throughout life people will make you mad, disrespect you and treat you bad. Let God deal with the things they do, cause hate in your heart will consume you too.  --Will Smith

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****    Cash P.O.V.    ***

I looked blankly at the computer screen though I wasn't really looking at it.

I sighed just shutting it off and closing it. I looked at the wall thinking.  " Cash its almost time to get the girls " Steph came into the room.

" Okay " I looked up at her and smiled. " Are you feeling any better? "

" Yeah, I needed to take something and rest. Im feeling a little better now. " She sat down on the edge of the bed.

She stayed home from school because she said she didn't feel too good. " Thats good to hear "

" I dont think I feel well enough to go home with the girls after school so im going to stay here with you "

" I dont think Gucci is going to like hearing that " I tell her. " He is going to think you are not wanting to be around him because of me and him "

This was why I stayed at his house for so long because I didn't want him to start getting angry at them because some of them didn't want to be with him...Or some didn't want to be with me or here.

" Well thats not it. I love my brother ,thats my brother but im sick and I dont wanna be over there. I wanna lay here in my bed and order room service watching stupid movies then go to church on sunday " She shrugs.