That Ballah Love: Down For My Ballah

Chapter 54 (Part 4)

I knooow its been a while. I been busy with hardly any time for myself. But enjoy. Alssooo Myan in the MM ⬆⬆ Happy readings

The best words of wisdom that a parent can say to their child is "I Am proud of you" -- Unarine Ramaru

Raising a child whether yours or not, is being anointed by God to be the guardian of his Kingdom in a form of a child. -- Unarine Ramaru

I am strong, independent and live on my own. But deep inside, I am just a little girl who want someone's shoulder to cry on. --Yvonne Urlanda

Don't you find it odd," she continued, "that when you're a kid, everyone, all the world, encourages you to follow your dreams. But when you're older, somehow they act offended if you even try. --Ethan Hawke

If you can't believe in miracles, then believe in yourself. When you want something bad enough, let that drive push you to make it happen. Sometimes you'll run into brick walls that are put there to test you. Find a way around them and stay focused on your dream. Where there's a will, there's a way. -- Isabel Lopez

I've got everything I need except a man. And I'm not one of those women who thinks a man is the answer to everything, but I'm tired of being alone. --unknown

**** CASHMERE P.O.V ****

" Can you help me put on my shoes? " I asked.

" Of course " Steph dropped down and put on my shoes. " It should be my big head brother here doing this. Its his child "

" Lets not even " I huff.

Its been over a month since I parted ways with Gucci after trying to get him to give everything up..He drops by and sees the girls here and there and comes to Elles games and practices some times but thats it.

I havent spoken to Amiris that much either. I dont know whats going on with either of them and if they have dropped their beef or what..I hope so.

I cant force Gucci to grow up and act like a man. If he decides he wants to forever be a little boy and run the streets...I'll play my role as his ex-girlfriend and allow him to do what he wants. He's grown and im not his mother.

I have 4 little girls im raising and a baby boy thats due in just a few months.. i Dont have time to constantly worry or stress over petty drama and bullshit.

" Im just saying " She says getting up.

Steph has been the biggest help for me right now. Some days i dont even want to get out the bed or move..and shes right there. I really appreciate her.

Rae and Zeek do what they can and check on me also..So does Scooby even so im grateful for them all.

" Are you ready? " I asked the girls as I headed into the livingroom.

" Yeah " They tell me from in front of the tv. I checked the time to make sure we were good on time. I didn't need them late to school again.

" Let's go " I grabbed my keys. " Did you get something to eat? "

" Yeah " They say.

" Where is your sister? " I asked Steph.

" Myan come on before they are late! " She yells. A few later Myan came out on her phone with her back pack and we all headed out. I dropped the little girls off then the big girls off and gave them a few dollara before going on my way and heading to my centers to check up on things.

I wanted to be opening in 2 weeks the kids center..and it looked like that will be happening. I was so excited because we have all been working so hard and putting so much into this..and its paying off and is going to continue to pay off.