BTS Angst

Namjoon

Your Pov

"Namjoon, where are you now? You said you're going to pick me up at 7pm for our date but where are you?" I asked my boyfriend.

"OH MY GOD- I'm sorry babe, I forgot we have date! It's late now and I just arrived at home", Namjoon explained.

"You always like this...you used to be forgotten about everything, even our anniversary...."

"Y/n, I'm sorry okay?, I'll make it up to you. How about tomorrow?", he tried to console me.

"Ok but I don't want it to be cancel again, I don't want to be left alone at the shopping mall or even eating alone at the restaurant", I warn him.

"Okay, I won't and I promise. Goodnight jagiya", He said

"Goodnight, have a good rest".

NEXT DAY

Namjoon walked in to the cafe as his promise to meet me eventhough he's 30 minutes late.

"I thought you wouldn't come", I pout.

"Look, sorry for being late at least I keep my promise right", he winked like he always did.

"Yeah, yeah whatever Namjoon, at least I get to see you now and I missed you so much"

As soon as Namjoon about to hold my hands, he got incoming call and he excused himself.

"Y/N...-", Namjoon got cut off.

"I knew it...", Y/n disappointed.

"We're not even start yet, and you always busy like this, I'm so sick of it"

"Sorry Jagiya, next time okay?"

"Save it Namjoon. I'm fine with myself because I'm used to it. I always become your second option, you work is more important than me", I can't hold my tears anymore.

"No, it's not like what you think babe. I did all of this for you, for us so we can have a good and better life after marriage, please understand"

I keep silent myself

He kissed my forehead and bid a goodbye

Then he left me again like he used to do....

It's been a week since I haven't got any calls from him nor meet him. I missed him soo much so I decided to meet him at his office.

"Namjoon...", before I finish my words I'm shock when I saw he's kissing another girl.

I felt betrayed

Useless

Unloved

"It's not what you think Y/n, please let me explain", he push that girl harshly.

"Explain what? about what you did just now? It's happened right infront of my eyes Joon, there's nothing to talk about!!" I try to control my anger but I can't so I yell at him.

"No, please don't misunderstand, I lov-" his words got cutt off.

"Love me?hahaha (I fake laugh myself) you freakin said you love me? What the heck? so this is the reason why you didn't even bother to call me or AT LEAST text me because I know we can't meet up because you're super busy. It's hurt knowing the truth that you're busy because of this woman, this slut! I'm going to be insane if you keep being like this Namjoon, stop all of this shits!!", I let it out.

I felt hard slap on my left cheek

He slap me

He freakin slap me....for the first time

I'm crying infront of him

"S-sorry", that's all he could say.

"Thank you for all the good things that you've done to me. I really love you Joon, I'm sorry if my words hurts you that much. From now on our relationship are no longer exist and just act like we never meet". Sorry Joon, I had to say this.

He tried to approach me but I stop him

He hug me like there's no tomorrow

I ran off from his office while crying

Little did I know he chased me

Namjoon's Pov

I'm sorry for hurting you Y/n, it's not like what you see. She forced me.

She's the one who forbid me to see you and she also the one who always make myself busy with work in order to not meet you.

I want to quit with my work but I still have 4 years contract in this company so I can't quit just like that. She's my boss.

I hope I can explain all this things to you but you don't give me a chance to do so.

She's just my boss, yes she like me and want me to be her boyfriend but I rather chose you because I love you.

I can't let you go

I need to win your heart back

I hope I'm not too late

Your Pov

I saw Namjoon chasing me so I ran quickly

As soon as I'm about to cross the street, I heard a loud horn from a car and someone shout my name. I know that voice. It's Namjoon.

After that I saw he running to me and many people circling me.

"Someone please call an ambulance!!!", he shouted.

"Y/n...p-please don't close your eyes, I don't want to lose you. I love you very much. Don't leave me", he crying.

He's crying...
No...I can't make him crying

"I l-love yo-you too Joonie" is the last words I said to him.

Namjoon's Pov

I can't believe I lose her

I love her more than I love myself

I regret everything

I felt guilty

I hope I can fixed everything and explain it to her

But it was useless because she's gone

"I hope you're in heaven now Y/n, I love you and no one can replace you in my heart, hope you get better place there", I put the orchid flower which was her fav on her graveyard

I cried harder
But she's gone
I need to continue my life

....without her