Office 48

Chpt 23: What now?

Anna's POV

I knew what I was doing was wrong. I can't keep string people along. If only Blaire were with me. I could tell her anything. I needed to work my problems out with her. I got dressed and walked to Blaire's room. I knocked and she opened the door. "Hey" she said looking down. "Can we talk?" I asked. she nodded and grabbed a piece of paper then shut the door. we walked to the garden and she sat down. "I was going to give this to Calum to give to you" she said. I sat down, "Read it" it said. she opened the letter and breathed. The clouds grew dark as she looked at the letter then at me.

"Dear Annabella or as I like to call Anna,

I fucked up big time. I know you replaced me and all but I need you. I feel like my other half is missing. I know you have Elena and she's lucky as hell to have you as a friend. I fucked up and I know I lost all trust. but when Luke came to me saying you needed help and that you'd been missing, I felt hope. I thought if I found you we'd work everything out. and for a while we did, then I fucked up again. I guess I'm doing awful at this apology but I need you Anna. I know you moved on but I haven't and we've been friends basically our whole life. I can't risk loosing someone as amazing as you" Blaire said wiping her eyes. My heart ached. "I hate fighting with you as well, I forgive you Blaire. do you forgive me" I said. "Of corse" she said standing up. she hugged me and we both cried. "I need your help, I have a huge issue" I said as it stated to rain. we went under a rock that covered the rain. we use to sit her as kids. "Michael and Luke, they agreed to 'Share me' and Michael told me to choose one. I don't know who the hell to pick" I said. "List pros and cons of each" she said grabbing her phone. "Start with Michael and the pros" she said. "Well he makes me feel alive. I could go anywhere with him. plus he's really good in bed. he makes me feel like I'm the only thing that matters and that he truly loves me. cons are that he has a short temper. his mood spikes a lot" I said. "And Luke?" Blaire asked. "He makes me feel like I'm a princess. he treats me so nicely and is very gentle. sometimes when we do it he gets controlling and try's to be in control. it's sexy really. his damn lip ring, god it's sexy as fuck. he makes me laugh and feel good. Cons, he is very emotional and protective. he also, what's the word... territorial, he doesn't like anyone touching me unless he knows who they are" I said. Blaire compared both. "In all honesty, Michael couldn't stop talking about you when we fake dated. he ranted about how much he screwed up" Blaire said. "What now?" I asked. "I think you should make up with Michael. Luke will find someone good" she said. "I think I ship Buke more than Balum" I said. "I like them both but Calum is a no string attachment. we just fuck, knowing Luke he wouldn't like that" she said. I laughed agreeing and then stood up. I walked in looking for Luke. Ashton tried to distract me from going to my room. "I never got a tour" he said. "Ashton, move" I said pushing him. I shut the elevator door and road up. Ashton missed the door and I was glad. The doors opened and Ashton was there. "Move" I said. "Anna don't go-" He paused as I pressure pointed him. "Fuck" he said as I walked past him. I walked and saw Luke kissing some girl. "Luke?!?" I asked. he yanked away and walked towards me. "Anna I-" "We need to talk" I said pulling him into a room. "It was a one time-" "I'm breaking up with you" I said. "Anna it was only a-" "Not because of that. I've given the whole sharing thing a thought and I'm not like that. I've decided to choose one and I chose Michael. there's just something between him and I that I can't shake" I said. "You never did love me, did you?" luke said. "Of corse I did, but I never truly felt that spark. You know? that feeling you get when your with the one you love. With Michael it's different, I feel alive. I hope you understand" I said hugging him. "I hope we can be friends" he said. "You'll still be Luke Hemmings, the one with the lip piercing, who is a true friend to me and has always stood by my side. you deserve someone who will love you way more than I ever could" I said. I walked out and Michael looked at me. "Blaire said th-" "Come here" I said taking his hand. I walked to my room and grabbed Luke's bags. I put them in the hall and locked the door. "Did you fuck Luke in the clos-" I paused kissing Michael. "I thought about the sharing thing and I don't want to be shared. I want to be yours Michael. I want to wake up with you beside me. I want you, Michael. I've realized that being with you, was the best choice I've ever made and it's taken me a while to make my mind up. and I love you Michael" I said. he pressed his lips to mine. "Took you long enough" he said smirking. he picked me up and laid me on the bed. "I've needed to hear that for a while" he said. "Now you have" I said smiling. "Lets fuck now" he said taking his shirt off.