Office 48

Chpt 59: Tell me the truth

Blaire's POV
"I thought you hated kids, never wanted them. when the fuck did this happen?" I asked. Calum sat down on the couch in defeat. "I tried to hide this B, bu-" "My name is Blaire. there's no B. it's Blaire" I said interrupting him. "Blaire please, I fucked up and I know it's not far to put you through this. I thought if I left then everything would be ok, but it wasn't. Alexandrea was a one night stand, but then she became so important to all of us. we used to preform at small little bars as a group. she loved us and she had us under her spell. I don't know how many times we fucked but I know I did it the most. it's my kid, we had a DNA test to prove it. I don't want to go back but if I don't then she'll tell everyone that it was rape and she'll ruin my career and everyone's that I love. I can't afford to have you loose the job of your dreams. that's why I gave in. I want you to have a happy life, without me if that's how it's suppose to be, and I understand if you never want to see me again and if you want to smack me or hit me and scream out how much you hate me. I get it. I fucked up and I can't even begin to apologize. this crossed the line and I know it did but I hope that if there's just the tinniest part of your heart that cares, then you'll forgive me and we can move on from this as friends. maybe in the long run if we bump into each other then we can start fresh. I don't want to lose our relationship but I think it's already been lost. I don't know how many times you need to hear this so I figured I'd start with the first I'm sorry. I'm sorry for pulling you in and making you feel all this pain and guilt that you've felt. I'm sorry for making your life hell and being the ass I am. I fucked up so many times and I know I said 'one more chance' too many times and I'm sorry. I know I'm sorry doesn't cut it but Blaire. I won't be able to live with myself in Australia knowing that you're here dwelling on everything. But I'm not sorry for loving you and giving up my world for you. I'm not sorry that you fell for me back. I'm not sorry that I kissed you and told you how beautiful you were, or how sexy that tight black dress makes you look. I'm not sorry for loving you, because loving you is the one thing that keeps me going. loving you is what gets me up in the morning and I'm not sorry for that. I'm not sorry for the sex and the fights we got into, because this has all been part of a relationship. relationship has the word ship in it and that's what we've been on. a ship that has come to a crash" Calum said. I stood there with my mouth agape. Calum took everything that I was going to fight and used it. he was right. I shook my head. "I'm going to miss this" I said as I walked towards him embracing his warmth. we stood there for a long time. "That's the most thoughtful thing you've ever said to me. I'm going to miss waking up with you, and I truly hope we can remain friends, and I wish you the best of luck with Alex and your baby" I said as a tear rolled down my cheek.
Anna's POV
"Promise me Anna" Michael said as I put the first aid kit away. "I can't promise you Michael. I can't because I know I'm never going to find someone like you. you'll be in Australia and you'll me a new girl. I'll be in the dust and I'll cope with it. but I'm not promising you that I will find someone better than you because you were the best thing that has happened to me. your the anchor that's held me together. and I'm going to miss you like hell but we have to end this Michael. it'll be less painful if we aren't together. and maybe in the future if we meet again we'll start fresh. like the first time we met at that meeting. maybe this is a good thing for us" I said as I held back tears. "This isn't the right thing to do Anna, I won't meet anyone that's better then you. your the one for me and I can't say goodbye. I'm not going to ever move on, but someone as beautiful and talented as you. you will. you need to promise me that you'll find someone who will give you the world and be everything and anything that I couldn't be. they'll give you the world and then some. better then I could've ever given you" Michael said. I shook my head no as tears rolled down my cheeks. "Annabella" Michael said as he hugged me. "Don't leave me" I cried out. I began sobbing. he was truly leaving me. not moving houses or to a different state, but a different country. I knew something like this would happen eventually. I just didn't think it would happen so soon. Michael held me to his chest. "I'm trying to be strong, but I can't anymore" I confessed. "Strong is overrated. just be you" Michael said pulling back and wiping my cheeks. "Michael the cabs here" Calum called in. "I'll be out shortly" he called back. "No! Not yet" I said. "Hey, Anna look at me" Michael said as he brought my cheeks up towards his head. he looked at me. "I will never ever forget about you. I promise" he said. "I'll never forget about you either. Or how much you loved me, promise you'll come visit" I said. "I promise" Michael said as we walked out. Blaire gave Michael a smile and he got his bags. "Bye Anna" he said as I saw tears in his eyes. he gave me one last hug and it lasted a long time. Calum waited by the door and then Michael pulled back. "Be brave, for me ok? I'll be back before you know it" Michael said. I nodded giving him one last kiss. he broke it and then the door shut. "Call me if you need anything ok Anna? I mean it" Blaire said. "Same for you" I said. Blaire and I walked out and they waved as the van left. Blaire got in her car and went home. I shut the door and locked it.