The Lies We Tell

Chapter 9:

Chapter 9:

The rest of the night I tried to find an excuse for my behavior, to find an excuse to take back everything. I cried as I watched the house across the street. Lights flickered, people moved around, and yells could be heard. I watched as my phone lit up. A message flashed across the screen as I picked it up.

From: Mom

Hey Addi, I know we r supposed to b back 2morrow but there was a change in plan, dont know when we be back but might no be for a while.....love ya, Mom and Dad

I cried just a little bit harder that night, harder than ever before. I felt as if my world was crumbling down. I sat and thought about everything I wished I could talk back. All the times I just sat alone in my room, all the times I cried to myself, all the times I spent with Liam, but most importantly all the times I pushed my parents away. I tried for a while, but after they left, after they sent me away, I began to resent them.

~Flashback~

I laid still in my bed, the tears wouldn't seem to stop. I had tried to make friends, really I had. I tried explaining it to my parents, I tried to make them listen. I hugged my knees to my chest. Everything was clouded as the tears started to build up. I bawled as the memories kept flashing into my mind. I listened ti the bickering that partook on the floor below mine.

"IT'S HER FAULT!" My mother screamed showing no compassion. I listened to my father argue back and forth with her with little success. I listened to her yell at him, I listened to her blame me for everything. I broke down and hid under my covers. I tried to pretend they weren't there, I tried to disappear. finally my father came into my room and patted my back.

"Hey Adds.... Are you okay?" He asked. I cried harder and shook under my blankets. I felt him pull the covers away and help me sit up. "Addi, just listen okay? Your mother and I decided-" He stopped to find the right words. "Decided it would be best for you to g-go live with Aunt Riley." He said. I looked at him with horror, I looked at him with disgust. I felt him try to hug me but I pushed him away from me.

"You guys want me to leave?" I asked as the tears built up more. Suddenly my mother joined him by the door. I watched as she looked at me with anger, with hatred.

"We can't deal with this Addison, it isn't normal behavior." My dad tried.

"That doesn't mean you send you child away!!!!!" I yelled. "It would help if you guys would be here once in a while! It'd help if you guys actually tried!!!!!" I screamed at the top of my lungs. I felt light headed as we continued to yell. I felt abandoned, I felt helpless. I cried as she threw my stuff around. I watched as she packed my stuff. I screamed as they dragged me to the car. I hated myself, I hated them.

~Flashback ends~

They never tried to apologize. To be honest, I don't think they ever really cared.....

The next morning I woke up to Nessa screaming at me. I opened my eyes to find her in front of me with a box of tissues and some ice cream, she knows me too well. I felt tears rushed to my puffy eyes as she gave me a small smile. I scooted over so she could take a seat next to me.

"You okay?" She asked as I fiddled with my fingers. I just shook my head and let a tear slip down my cheek. She handed me the bucket of cookie dough ice cream and a spoon. I took it and opened the pail. I just stared down at it though. Nothing seemed the same anymore. I couldn't force myself to act okay this time, I couldn't let go. "Is this about Liam or something else?" She asked with a concerned look.

"Both." I mumbled and broke down. She hugged me tightly as I let it out. When I finally was able to speak again I forced words out. "They wont be home. They aren't coming home." I said in between wails. "A-and Li-am, I-I-I-" I couldn't finish.

"Hey, Addi." She said trying to get my attention. "You can stay with us if you want and Liam, he's, you just need to move on... I know it's hard but-"

"You don't know him the way I did..... We-he-I..." I started before thinking about him.

I sat underneath the tree that was planted in my backyard, guitar in hand, and Liam laying down with his hand on my lap. I strummed a soft chord as he watched. I smiled at him quickly and looked at his blueish-green eyes. Suddenly they flashed yellow. He chuckled softly as I stared at him with fascination and adoration.

"You make my heart race." He said trying to explain the change in color. I smiled and strummed a familiar song and quietly sang the words I remembered. I felt as if this song described us.

"Settle down with me, And I'll be your safety, You'll be my lady. I was made to keep your body warm, But I'm cold as the wind blows so hold me in your arms. Oh no, My heart's against your chest, your lips pressed to my neck, I'm falling for your eyes, but they don't know me yet, And with this feeling I'll forget, I'm in love now." I felt him stare at me.

"I didn't know you could sing." He said with a twinkle in his eyes. I smiled at him before laying next to him and holding him close.

I just looked at Nessie trying to tell her with my eyes that I'm not going to be alright, not without him. We just sat there, all day, and tried to feel better. Nothing worked though, nothing would ever work.

Monday came around too fast. I'm not ready. I can't see him, I can't forgive him, yet I can't live without him. I tried to make myself presentable before walking out my day and attempting to be strong. I walked through the heavy doors like nothing was wrong, I made it to my locker without collecting a single glance. I grabbed my notebook and stared at the ground as I pasted Scott and Stiles. I quickened my pace as I heard Nessa call my name. She was by Garrett, Liam, and Mason. I can't see him now, I've done so well. I was deep in thought that I didn't even notice bumping into a new body. I looked at the boy I had just bumped into and looked at the girl standing next to him. Twins?

"Sorry." I said.

"It's fine." The girl said for the boy. "I'm Maia and this is my brother Max."

"I'm Addison." I said. They smiled at me as I excused myself and walked back out the front doors. My main goal is getting through the day, just one day. "Pull your shit together, you can do this." I said to myself and walked back in again.

By the end of the day I was ready to go home. I was ready to be alone and lay in my room, like old times. I felt the tired, depressed feeling that was oh, so familiar and walked him. I tried to drown out the world by blasting my music and closing my eyes. Old habits began to sink back in just from one little situation. I can't do this forever.

The rest of the week went the same way though. I secluded myself and just talked to Nessie. It hurt to look at them, it hurt to look at him. I was going to be alright eventually, it takes time. Friday I decided it was time.

"Hey." I said awkwardly as they all stood in their little group.

"And our girl is back!" Mason said giving me a bro hug. I laughed a little bit for the first time all week.

"Haha. Missed ya too Mason!" I said. Liam looked at me with a broken smile and I shrugged. "Hey..." He looked at me one more time before excusing himself to go talk to Maia. My heart broke a little more as he smiled at her, but how can something break if it was never whole to begin with. His face lit up around her and I realized I really had missed my chance..... I wonder if he ever looked at me that way. They all watched my face as he talked to her. I must have really looked broken because they all know I was about to leave.

"Addi." They all yelled as I bolted down the hall to my locker, then out the door of the school, and finally all the way into the woods. I felt alone, I felt how I should.

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Chapter 9! I actually kind of like this chapter..... Kind of. Lol Sorry my writing hasn't been very good lately. Thank you for 2.4K and 100 votes! Love you all so much! Btw I forgot to mention I'm doing imagines on my wattpad tumblr! So go send in requests! Love ya all sooooo much!

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