The Lies We Tell

Chapter 18:

Chapter 18:

I laid awake at night unable to sleep. I still had Liam's baggy sweatshirt, keeping me warm. I cuddled up to my blanket and sighed. I looked out my window and saw his light was on too. I debated whether to say something or not. I missed him, I really did. I felt tears fill my eyes as I laid back down. I haven't slept in days, not without waking up in fear. I haven't be able to relax. My hands constantly shake from stress, or anxiety, or who knows what else. I stared up at the ceiling and screamed in frustration. I sighed and put my hands over my face. I placed my iPod in my dock and selected the only song that knew exactly what I was going though; Stay by Mayday Parade. I sang along as tears filled my eyes. I loved everything about it, the vocals, the melody, the truth. I wanted to find something I was as passionate about as this band was with their music. They made you feel what they felt, go though what their going though. I listened to someone tap on my window and looked out to see Liam there waiting. I couldn't help but to smile at him. Even after everything I had said, I had done, he's still here. I opened the window and watched as he jumped down onto my bed.

"Hey Addi." He said and dropped the bag he was carrying. I eyed it for a second, then watched as he opened it. He pulled out a huge stack of movies and snacks. "I thought you could use a friend." He said and I smiled at the ground.

"Yea, I could." I whispered and hugged him. He hugged back. I cuddled into his chest and closed my eyes. "I'm sorry." I whispered.

"Me too." He said and rested his head on mine.

"And I'm even more sorry that I can't have a boyfriend right now." I whispered and he kissed the top of my head.

"It's okay, I'll wait." I sighed.

"I can't make you do that Liam." I said and looked up at him. He smiled even though I was a mess. He moved the hair out of my face.

"You don't have too." He said. "I'll wait, I'll wait forever." I sighed and laid down with him. He put in the first movie and we cuddled together. Even if we aren't together, we still wanted to be with each other.

Days passed and I haven't seen him, he's too busy saving the supernatural race. I walked into the school and hid my face. I had one friend left and he had skipped this whole week with Scott. I opened my locker door and shoved my bag in. I grabbed my notebook and went to sit underneath the staircase. I stayed there for a while, uninterrupted until I felt a tap on my shoulder. I looked up to see Nessa standing there.

"Can we talk?" She asked and I nodded. I watched as she took a seat next to me and looked at the cast on my wrist.

"I deserved it." I said trying to make her feel better about doing it. She sighed.

"I know, but that doesn't make it okay." She said. "You were having the worst day ever and I should've let you calmed down, I should've let you be."

"And I shouldn't have taken it out on you. Nessa I really deserved it, I was out of line." I said and we hugged. "I missed you sis." I said.

"I missed you too." She said. "We're having a camp out thing tonight, wanna come?" I nodded and smiled. "Good, we'll walk to my place after school and hang out before. I promise." She said and gave me a final hug, before leaving me alone with my thoughts. I stared at the blank notebook page and closed my eyes. I let my pencil move freely on the page and opened my eyes to see one single word, Liam. I frowned and shut the notebook. Time to face the world.....

After school Nessa and I walked back to her house. We just hung out like old times before heading out to the cliff. I wasn't very fond of the cliffs, actually I hated them. It was a 50 foot drop into the river my brother had died in. I didn't say a thing though, I just walked with her. As we arrived we saw two tents set up and Liam and Garrett sitting with their feet hanging over the edge. I stopped as I saw Liam he turned and looked back at us.

"I thought it was time you two made up." Nessa said before leaving me standing there speechless. She took a seat next to Garrett. I looked at Liam and my heart dropped. He got up from his spot and made his way over too me. I gave him a painful smile and said hi. He looked at me and said hi back. I followed him back over to the edge of the cliff and took a seat. I listened to the conversation for a little bit before zoning out. I stared down at the rushing watch below us. The current was moving fast and the rocks looked as if they we're sharpened to a point. I gulped and stared at it with fear in my eyes. I felt Liam take my hand and rub his thumb over it.

"You okay?" He whispered. I stared at the water below us and shook my head. He looked at me and pulled me away from the edge. "Let's take a walk." He whispered. I nodded and walked with him. I felt a breeze brush my skin and a shiver go down my spine. I felt him put his sweatshirt over my shoulders and kiss my forehead. "What's wrong?" He asked as we continued on. I looked at him and felt tears filled my eyes as I listened to the river currents. He suddenly realized why I was so upset. I felt Liam pull me into his arms and felt him stroke the back of my heads. "I'm so sorry." He whispered.

"It's okay, I'm okay." I lied. He kissed the top of my head and looked at me. I watched as the moonlight shined down on him. He was so handsome. It hurt to look at him for too long. I hugged him tightly and he smiled.

I enjoyed the fire we had set up for a few hours. We talked, and laughed, and just had a great time. I looked out over the edge one last time before calling it a night. I went in and laid down on the sleeping bag that was in there. Within minutes Liam joined me in our tent. I turned and looked at him. He stared at me for a while before speaking.

"Addison? If it's really over can I asked for one last thing?" He asked. I nodded and stared at him. "Can I have one final kiss?" His hand brushed my face and his eyes stared into mine. I looked at him before pressing my lips to his. I thought it would be one small kiss, but when my lips hit his I knew I couldn't pull away. I felt the passion build between us and his hands on my hips. He pulled me closer and my hands tangled themselves in his hair. I missed this so much, I missed him. I wished it didn't have to end, but it's btter now than later. I felt his tongue run across my bottom lip, begging for entrance. I instantly opened my mouth and let him in. I let out a small moan and felt tears fill my eyes. A single tear rolled down the side of my face as we continued to kiss. I felt Liam pull away and hold me close. We cuddled in silence for a while before letting sleep take over. "I love you." He whispered before falling asleep. I sighed, not feeling so tired anymore. I did love him back, with all my heart, but I couldn't do that too him. I looked at him peacefully sleeping next to me. Carefully I slipped out of his grip and exited the tent. I looked out at the rushing water below the cliff and thought. The sound of the river has haunted my dreams, thoughts, and memories forever. I stood with my feet on the very edge and watched the moving water I felt the edge, where my foot was resting, break off and I screamed. I fell down about 10 feet before grabbing hold of a root sticking out of the ground. I looked down at the river below me and screamed again.

"ADDISON?" Liam screamed out in horror. I could tell he was looking around for me. I cried as my hand begin to slip a little. Suddenly I saw Liams face above me, looking down in fear. "Addi!" He yelled. I felt tears fall down my face as my hand slipped farther and farther.

"Help!" I cried. "Help!"

______________________________________________________________Chapter 18!!!!!!!!!! I really hope you like it!!!!!!!! I'd like to announce I'm writing a 5SOS fanfic with my good friend @maddiehayes621 and it should be up tonight! It's called 5 Minutes to Fame and its really good so go show her account some love!

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